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[–] areyouevenreal@lemm.ee 2 points 6 months ago* (last edited 6 months ago) (12 children)

Yes, it is based on reasoning, but it’s not from first principles, rather, it’s from your a priori assumptions that anyone who says anything even mildly critical about autistic people is doing so because of bigotry.

Ah, now I get it. We aren't actually working from the same framework. By reasoning from first principles I take it you mean rationality/logic? The problem with that is that mathematics, logic, reasoning, and so on can't actually prove anything. If we used logic we can determine that no evidence can be definite as things like dreams, hallucinations, illusions and so on exist. The only conclusion you can really reach is that perhaps everything is made up, and you can't be certain anything is real in other words solipsism. That's where "first principles" come in I guess. By first principles I assume you mean assumptions, as you won't get anywhere with logic without some kind of assumption. Since I don't know what your first principles are I am not going to be able to follow your reasoning, as if I would probably be starting with a different set of assumptions about the world. Generally though I don't believe logic/reasoning is a good tool for understanding people and things related to people like politics. It's good for bounded contexts with a well known state or rules like computers, or physical phenomenon. Depending on your worldview humans are either too badly known and too complex for another human to perform logic on them, or are simply not logical to begin with. Since it's not an effective strategy it's not something I am interested in using on people. I suspect a lot of disagreements where people are screaming at each other that the other isn't being logical come from having different assumptions rather than one being illogical.

No, I keep calling LLMs less than human, and I compared their behavior to that of humans with a specific neurodevelopmental disorder (i.e. autism), which is commonly characterized by exhibiting very similar patterns of behavior, namely deficits in reciprocal social communication, along with restricted and repetitive patterns of behavior (this is straight from the Wikipedia page on autism BTW, before you accuse me of spreading misinformation again), all of which you have amply demonstrated in this conversation, for instance, in your repeated insistence that the only valid explanation for my behavior is bigotry and that the only possible remedy is for me to give up my position and agree with you, to say sorry as many times as it takes for you to believe me, and to make promises of never repeating my behavior ever again.

Okay now you are saying thing with at least some degree of scientific evidence. The evidence for everything else you have said up until now has been pretty much "I made it the fuck up". I mean to be fair psychology isn't a real science and diagnostic categories are largely based on intuition rather than neurobiological evidence, so you aren't that far off. The LLMs I have worked with have been much more demure, they fairly easily admit they made a mistake (and can probably be coerced into doing so even if they actually haven't), and are willing to reason about political positions very different from their own liberal bias. Pretty much the opposite of stubbornness and debate bros. By being stubborn I am if anything behaving less like an LLM, as LLMs haven't been stubborn in my experience. Maybe you have had a different experience, if so I would like to here it.

Also the restricted and repetitive behavior thing is about special interests/hyperfixation. It's not actually applicable here as far as I know.

Alternatively, we can continue this conversation, and you can look for evidence of whether my behavior is in fact congruent with my stated intention that my goal was not to offend you, but to demonstrate that even someone like you, with an official diagnosis of autism, has abilities that exceed that of an LLM.

Was it ever in doubt that an autistic person can beat an LLM? It wasn't for me. The fact you think it was is kind of offensive in and of itself.

I’m sorry, but I can’t do that. It restricts my freedom too much and it interferes with my curiosity, because it essentially is a demand of indefinite slavery and servitude to your expectations. You are, in a way, demanding that I behave more autistically myself in order for you to feel better about your own autism. Clearly, that will never cure you of your condition, and perhaps that’s not what you’re after anyways, but I’m certainly not going to help make the world more autistic so you can feel better about it.

I am not trying to restrict your freedom of speech here. What you do have to understand is that speech has consequences. For example I can do what I have been doing here and argue against you. Freedom of speech is not freedom from consequences.

Now here’s what I CAN offer: first, if this conversation is excessively difficult and painful for you to have, you can just say so and I’ll promise to stop. I won’t come after you and annoy you if I see you around this forum (or anywhere else on Lemmy), and I can put you on my blocklist to ensure it doesn’t happen by accident (or you can block me if you prefer to be more in control of that, up to you).

If you want, I can even offer an ongoing dialogue (via private messages perhaps) to share some strategies I’ve learned to deal with and overcome autism because while I’ve never received an official diagnosis, I have had many of the same symptoms in the past (still sometimes do), and I’m fairly certain I would have likely been diagnosed with it if my parents had bothered enough to get me to a shrink.

I don't think you have a modern understanding of neurodiversity or of neurotypes. A lot things that were once thought to be limitations of autistic people weren't limitations of autistic people at all. For example it was thought we lacked empathy by some psychologists (and still is) even though now we know of the double empathy problem. It's a incompatibility/communication issue, not an ability one. I would suggest you do some reading, then you might understand what I am getting at. It's also understood there are some limitations neurotypical people have that autistic people do not. There was actually an interesting study done which showed that NT people don't behave morally when they aren't being watched, unlike autistic people who behave the same regardless of if they are being watched or not. The thing you said about most people behaving like NPCs is potentially one of those limitations of neurotypicals I am talking about here.

It's a shame you haven't been evaluated if that's something you wished for. Do you mind telling me what symptoms you think you might have? I understand if that's not something you want to discuss publicly or with me in particularly.

There is also a tactic where people ask if someone needs help in a disingenuous way as a form of ad-hominem attack. Essentially calling some crazy while trying to make it sound like they are legitimately concerned. I don't think you are doing this, at least not intentionally, but I hope you understand that this could be read this way.

But either way, I am not going to let you abuse me for having had a slip of the tongue and saying something mildly offensive about autistic people. And please don’t drag the rest of the forum into it either because it’s not their fault that I accidentally misspoke.

Have you been using text to speech? None of this on my side at least involves tongues or speaking. Yes I know it's a turn of phrase, but it's a bad one. With a text forum you can reread, edit, think about what you are saying much more easily than real life speech. I legitimately don't think they are comparable in behavioral or social terms, and there are social phenomenon that happen online or in writing that don't in other areas of life.

You also haven't just said one offensive thing, when pressed you kept saying offensive things. It's also not just that they are offensive either, it's that they seem to be based on misinformation and you haven't given any evidence for them either.

Also abuse you? Calling someone a bigot isn't abuse. Pushing you down the stairs would be abuse. Calling you racial slurs would be abuse. Psychological manipulation would be abuse. I am not trying to do any of those here. If anything you are unintentionally abusing me.

If you want to take this to DMs that's fine by me. While I don't necessarily respect this forum (I mean it's titled "Fuck AI" for goodness sake), I do understand not wanting to waste other people's time and that this conversation is probably no longer relevant to this forum.

[–] MacNCheezus 1 points 6 months ago (10 children)

Ah, now I get it. We aren't actually working from the same framework. By reasoning from first principles I take it you mean rationality/logic?

Yes, precisely.

The problem with that is that mathematics, logic, reasoning, and so on can't actually prove anything. If we used logic we can determine that no evidence can be definite as things like dreams, hallucinations, illusions and so on exist. The only conclusion you can really reach is that perhaps everything is made up, and you can't be certain anything is real in other words solipsism. That's where "first principles" come in I guess.

Ah yes, the old Cartesian demon who holds your consciousness imprisoned in a dream world making you question whether or not you exist at all. That's actually a very good, if not the perfect example of what I mean. I'm not sure how familiar you are with Descartes' Meditations, but outside the well-known realization of "I think, therefore I am", the method by which he defeats said demon is actually precisely the sort of thing I'm proposing.

To be more practical, what I was trying get at is basically the difference between having and being. Anything you have is likely to be temporary. Anything you are is likely to be constant. So you might ask yourself, are you autistic or do you have a condition called autism? If you can see the difference in perspective each statement offers, then you'll understand what I was on about.

You see, language is in fact even more basic a tool than reason and logic, because language is how we organize our perception of the world. Reason and logic simply arise out of language because language must have a certain structure in order to be meaningful at all and not just a random collection of words. LLMs clearly have the ability to learn that structure in a way that allows them to produce perfectly understandable sentences in any human language we choose to train them on, but they cannot really produce any good answers for questions that they haven't been specifically trained on.

Yes, they might still effectively hallucinate an answer anyways, and it might even sound correct, but unless you call them out on it when they start making stuff up, they won't even notice it happening. Clearly, they cannot actually reason through their own arguments, they simply produce something that imitates the human reasoning process well enough to pass muster approx. 90% of the time or so.

By first principles I assume you mean assumptions, as you won't get anywhere with logic without some kind of assumption. Since I don't know what your first principles are I am not going to be able to follow your reasoning, as if I would probably be starting with a different set of assumptions about the world.

As I tried pointing out above, a language model doesn't actually reason very well, it just imitates what humans do because it operates on prior knowledge acquired by its training. Meanwhile, humans have the ability, as Descartes' Meditations show, to throw away ALL of their prior assumptions about the world and start over from scratch, so to say, using only as much of their prior knowledge (i.e. the tools of language, logic, and reason) as strictly necessary, and in doing so, might reach new conclusions about the world that were previously inaccessible. Meanwhile an LLM will just make a wild-ass guess that seems to make sense, but often doesn't.

Generally though I don't believe logic/reasoning is a good tool for understanding people and things related to people like politics. It's good for bounded contexts with a well known state or rules like computers, or physical phenomenon. Depending on your worldview humans are either too badly known and too complex for another human to perform logic on them, or are simply not logical to begin with. Since it's not an effective strategy it's not something I am interested in using on people. I suspect a lot of disagreements where people are screaming at each other that the other isn't being logical come from having different assumptions rather than one being illogical.

Humans CAN be wildly illogical, that's true, but you can choose not to interact with such people (at least on the Internet, IRL it can of course sometimes be more difficult to do). Just like Descartes tests his demon, you can administer tests to them to see if they're willing to agree on some sort of shared ground rules for having a discussion that may be of mutual benefit, like we did in the previous comments and are continuing to do right now.

Again, a language model doesn't do that, it operates based on the rules it learned from its training corpus, and those are fairly fixed until you do another round of training that incorporates new information. Autism appears to be somewhat similar in that regard, in the sense that prior knowledge about how the world works (i.e. past exerience) is overweighted in comparison to what's actually happening (i.e. current experience).

Okay now you are saying thing with at least some degree of scientific evidence. The evidence for everything else you have said up until now has been pretty much "I made it the fuck up". I mean to be fair psychology isn't a real science and diagnostic categories are largely based on intuition rather than neurobiological evidence, so you aren't that far off.

I'm not sure if it's worth getting lost in the weeds of debating whether psychology is a real science or not, so I'm going to suggest we don't pursue that train of thought at the moment.

The LLMs I have worked with have been much more demure, they fairly easily admit they made a mistake (and can probably be coerced into doing so even if they actually haven't), and are willing to reason about political positions very different from their own liberal bias. Pretty much the opposite of stubbornness and debate bros. By being stubborn I am if anything behaving less like an LLM, as LLMs haven't been stubborn in my experience. Maybe you have had a different experience, if so I would like to here it.

To be fair, anything either of us has to say on this matter would likely fall under the category of circumstantial evidence. I for one certainly haven't done anything that could be considered scientific in this regard, and I am merely operating based on my memory of conversation I have either personally had, or have seen posted somewhere on the Internet.

Also the restricted and repetitive behavior thing is about special interests/hyperfixation. It's not actually applicable here as far as I know.

See my reasoning above for why I believe it DOES actually apply. I could be wrong, of course, but that's why I tried to explain how I arrived at this conclusion.

I don't think you have a modern understanding of neurodiversity or of neurotypes. A lot things that were once thought to be limitations of autistic people weren't limitations of autistic people at all.

I will freely admit that I haven't spent a huge amount of time familiarizing myself with the latest research on this, and I'm likely approaching it from a very different angle than you are, which might explain some of our difficulties communicating about this subject.

For example it was thought we lacked empathy by some psychologists (and still is) even though now we know of the double empathy problem. It's a incompatibility/communication issue, not an ability one. I would suggest you do some reading, then you might understand what I am getting at. It's also understood there are some limitations neurotypical people have that autistic people do not.

That's very interesting, and seems to validate my intuitive belief that autism is a condition that makes certain types of cognition more difficult, but not entirely impossible. Which means that with the right meds and/or mental effort, it may be possible to overcome it or at least greatly reduce the severity of its sypmptoms.

There was actually an interesting study done which showed that NT people don't behave morally when they aren't being watched, unlike autistic people who behave the same regardless of if they are being watched or not. The thing you said about most people behaving like NPCs is potentially one of those limitations of neurotypicals I am talking about here.

I have some interesting thoughts about that one, but it would require a rather lengthy explanation on where I'm coming from, so perhaps I'm going to save them for another time.

It's a shame you haven't been evaluated if that's something you wished for. Do you mind telling me what symptoms you think you might have? I understand if that's not something you want to discuss publicly or with me in particularly.

I'm pretty sure I have had all the symptoms I mentioned from the Wikipedia page at one time or another, and I continue to struggle with them from time to time. I also find it hard to make friends because most people seem to find my way of communicating exceedingly difficult, while I have had great difficulties with their tendency to make smalltalk.

That said, not sure what a diagnosis would do for me now, unless I was trying to get on disability benefits, perhaps. While it might have helped make my life a bit easier in the past, I'm somewhat concerned getting diagnosed now would just turn into an easy excuse for not making an effort.

There is also a tactic where people ask if someone needs help in a disingenuous way as a form of ad-hominem attack. Essentially calling some crazy while trying to make it sound like they are legitimately concerned. I don't think you are doing this, at least not intentionally, but I hope you understand that this could be read this way.

I'm certainly familiar with this tactic, but I don't think it HAS to necessarily be used nefariously, as it could just serve as a conversation starter. Perhaps it's a bit like asking someone to coffee after smashing a brick through their window, but I hope I have demonstrated enough sincerity so far as to not be credibl

[–] areyouevenreal@lemm.ee 1 points 5 months ago (3 children)

Ah yes, the old Cartesian demon who holds your consciousness imprisoned in a dream world making you question whether or not you exist at all. That’s actually a very good, if not the perfect example of what I mean. I’m not sure how familiar you are with Descartes’ Meditations, but outside the well-known realization of “I think, therefore I am”, the method by which he defeats said demon is actually precisely the sort of thing I’m proposing.

I haven't read meditations, but from what I have heard he defeats solipsism through an appeal to god. Appealing to a being you have no evidence for it not empirical or logical in my eyes. This increasingly makes me think

Humans CAN be wildly illogical, that’s true, but you can choose not to interact with such people (at least on the Internet, IRL it can of course sometimes be more difficult to do). Just like Descartes tests his demon, you can administer tests to them to see if they’re willing to agree on some sort of shared ground rules for having a discussion that may be of mutual benefit, like we did in the previous comments and are continuing to do right now.

There is a difference between being able to perform logic either verbally or to solve a specific situations or puzzle, and actually being logical in general. Plenty of people can act logically in one scenario, then spend most their lives doing the exact opposite.

This actually ties well into talking about autistic people, as some of us are highly logical, to the point of seeming unemotional and cold. Others are not rational at all and are highly emotional. I suspect one could theoretically occupy different extremes at different times in their life or under different conditions. As someone who used to be of the more logical variety, I will tell you now that people are not logical entities in general, and treating them as such only made working with them more difficult. I am beginning to think you don't actually have the people skills to see this.

To be more practical, what I was trying get at is basically the difference between having and being. Anything you have is likely to be temporary. Anything you are is likely to be constant. So you might ask yourself, are you autistic or do you have a condition called autism? If you can see the difference in perspective each statement offers, then you’ll understand what I was on about.

The autistic community has spent some time pushing for identity first language such as saying autistic people instead of people with autism. While I do understand the differences in statements I still don't really get what you are on about. A lot what you have said has been fairly condescending, using non identity first language, and over-medicalised language that the autistic community has worked hard to get rid of.

I really don't think you understand what special interesests/hyperfixations, stimming, echolalia, and so on are. Those are examples of "restricted interests" and "repetitive behaviors". I made the same statement repeatedly as a result of you saying things which show your ignorance of neurodivergence in general and the autistic community specifically.

Again, a language model doesn’t do that, it operates based on the rules it learned from its training corpus, and those are fairly fixed until you do another round of training that incorporates new information. Autism appears to be somewhat similar in that regard, in the sense that prior knowledge about how the world works (i.e. past exerience) is overweighted in comparison to what’s actually happening (i.e. current experience).

See now this kind of makes sense, though this isn't necessarily the same as how LLMs manifest this. Some autistic people cling to sameness and things they have experience with, and avoid novelty. LLMs can't avoid novelty, they just don't always respond well when it happens. There are cases of autistic people using something in a new scenario that worked previously and failing when exposed to novelty, but so do most NT people funnily enough. Everybody has some degree of established coping mechanisms. I would hazard a guess that the reason autistic people are known for it is their choice of coping mechanisms being unusual more than them repeating past strategies and coping mechanisms in and of itself, as NT people are prone to keep using maladaptive coping mechanisms long after they stopped being effective too. Trying to generalize something from a previous situations isn't illogical either, the illogical part is sticking to it long after it's clear it's not effective.

Which means that with the right meds and/or mental effort, it may be possible to overcome it or at least greatly reduce the severity of its sypmptoms.

Fyi you don't and can't overcome autism. It's an inherent characteristic like being male/female, having a missing leg, being black vs white, etc. It comes down to brain structure and genetics. There is limited medication for autism specifically, but even for labels like ADHD where more medications are effective, they don't eliminate the condition anymore than giving someone a prosthetic stops them from having a broken leg or covering someone in paint could make them black. ADHD meds also don't exactly stop all ADHD symtoms, they reduce some for a certain time, but they can also trigger new psychiatric and physical symptoms.

This why I am saying you are ignorant, and being unintentionally offensive, because even if you have some autistic traits, you haven't actually spent time interacting with the community or the content and ideas they produce.

You say you have had some strategies for "overcoming" problems associated with autism. Aside from this being a very white night type statement to make, I am interested in exactly what you are talking about. There is a fair bit of bad advice out there, and some "medical" treatments that turned out to do way more harm than good over the decades (ABA anyone?). I am somewhat concerned that you could cause damage to yourself or somebody else.

[–] MacNCheezus 1 points 5 months ago (1 children)

I haven't read meditations, but from what I have heard he defeats solipsism through an appeal to god. Appealing to a being you have no evidence for it not empirical or logical in my eyes.

It's been a while since I worked through them myself, but IIRC he does so by observing a sense of continuity in his experience, something a thoroughly evil demon would certainly not allow. He does so by observing the flame of a candle and noticing that it keeps burning more or less undisturbed, turning the hard wax into liquid and eventually consuming it. A thoroughly evil demon obviously would not allow something like this, which gives him reason to believe that either that demon does not exist, or he is at least not thoroughly evil.

There is a difference between being able to perform logic either verbally or to solve a specific situations or puzzle, and actually being logical in general. Plenty of people can act logically in one scenario, then spend most their lives doing the exact opposite.

Right. This is basically what I referred to in my other comment, that logic is a great tool but alone, it is not sufficient in order to live life, and that consequently, there might be value to allowing a certain amount of irrationality to exist. And perhaps this is something that overly rational people (like those with autism) can learn from NT people, who seem to be able to manage to live just fine in a world where not everything is perfectly explainable.

This actually ties well into talking about autistic people, as some of us are highly logical, to the point of seeming unemotional and cold. Others are not rational at all and are highly emotional. I suspect one could theoretically occupy different extremes at different times in their life or under different conditions. As someone who used to be of the more logical variety, I will tell you now that people are not logical entities in general, and treating them as such only made working with them more difficult. I am beginning to think you don't actually have the people skills to see this.

I'm certainly guilty of clinging too much to rationality as a way to see and explain the world, and insofar you are right – there are skills I am lacking when it comes to dealing with people, and it frequently seems to come down to dealing with their irrational impulses, which often tend to make me anxious or afraid. However, this appears to be an argument for religion if anything – at least to me, it strongly calls to mind Galatians 3:11:

But that no one is justified by the law in the sight of God is evident, for “the just shall live by faith.”

If we assume that "the law" means logic in this case, then this is simply saying that you cannot live by logic alone, and you must accept some irrationality in order to make it – in other words, some unproven belief, such as "God not only exists, but He is fundamentally good and does not want me to perish despite all evidence pointing to the opposite at the moment".

The autistic community has spent some time pushing for identity first language such as saying autistic people instead of people with autism. While I do understand the differences in statements I still don't really get what you are on about. A lot what you have said has been fairly condescending, using non identity first language, and over-medicalised language that the autistic community has worked hard to get rid of.

Well, like I said before, I cannot promise to never say anything hurtful or offensive, all I can do is ask for mercy when I do, and continue to work as hard as I can on demonstrating that I don't do so from a place of hatred or ill will. In that regard, I shall take your feedback to heart and simply observe that we seem to have a disagreement here, but I will refrain from pressing the issue.

I really don't think you understand what special interesests/hyperfixations, stimming, echolalia, and so on are. Those are examples of "restricted interests" and "repetitive behaviors". I made the same statement repeatedly as a result of you saying things which show your ignorance of neurodivergence in general and the autistic community specifically.

Like I said, I haven't met anyone with an official diagnosis of autism IRL, so you are probably correct here. All I can say is that I have observed similar behaviors in myself, and that my parents' occassionally forceful attempts to shut them off hasn't proven particularly effective, so if I have said anything that might imply that autistic people could simply choose not to do it, I'd like to apologize for that.

See now this kind of makes sense, though this isn't necessarily the same as how LLMs manifest this. Some autistic people cling to sameness and things they have experience with, and avoid novelty. LLMs can't avoid novelty, they just don't always respond well when it happens. There are cases of autistic people using something in a new scenario that worked previously and failing when exposed to novelty, but so do most NT people funnily enough. Everybody has some degree of established coping mechanisms. I would hazard a guess that the reason autistic people are known for it is their choice of coping mechanisms being unusual more than them repeating past strategies and coping mechanisms in and of itself, as NT people are prone to keep using maladaptive coping mechanisms long after they stopped being effective too. Trying to generalize something from a previous situations isn't illogical either, the illogical part is sticking to it long after it's clear it's not effective.

That's a good point, and it seems to provide some evidence for my suggestion that a perfectly rational world is impossible, because without a source of randomness, we would all be cursed to living entirely predictable lives for all eternity.

Fyi you don't and can't overcome autism. It's an inherent characteristic like being male/female, having a missing leg, being black vs white, etc. It comes down to brain structure and genetics. There is limited medication for autism specifically, but even for labels like ADHD where more medications are effective, they don't eliminate the condition anymore than giving someone a prosthetic stops them from having a broken leg or covering someone in paint could make them black. ADHD meds also don't exactly stop all ADHD symtoms, they reduce some for a certain time, but they can also trigger new psychiatric and physical symptoms.

Perhaps you can't, but does that have to mean you shouldn't even try? Inasfar as I have similar symptoms, I certainly tend to find them excrutiatingly difficult to bear at times, and I would literally give anything in order to be relieved from them. Therefore I personally find it necessary to ignore such statements in order not to crush my hopes of one day being free from this burden. I'm not suggesting that you have to do the same, all I'm saying is that it works for me.

This why I am saying you are ignorant, and being unintentionally offensive, because even if you have some autistic traits, you haven't actually spent time interacting with the community or the content and ideas they produce.

That is a valid and fair criticism, and the only defense I have to offer is the point I've made above – basically, inasfar as there IS a sense of fatalism within the community (i.e. a belief that "we'll be stuck with this forever"), I am wont to reject it. And I DO in fact have some valid evidence for this, even if it only comes in the form of personal experience, because I have been able to achieve far more than I ever thought possible as a result of ignoring such thoughts for a while. However, I also ended up paying a heavy price for this, so I'm certainly not going to pretend that I have all the answers, or suggest that anyone follow my example.

You say you have had some strategies for "overcoming" problems associated with autism. Aside from this being a very white night type statement to make, I am interested in exactly what you are talking about. There is a fair bit of bad advice out there, and some "medical" treatments that turned out to do way more harm than good over the decades (ABA anyone?). I am somewhat concerned that you could cause damage to yourself or somebody else.

Well, I suppose the best advice I have is to try not to be fatalistic about the situation, but to continually try and look for ways to extract some sort of good from it all, even if it seems excessively difficult at times. Personally, I found that reframing it from identity-based based language (i.e. "I am autistic") to non-identity based statements (i.e. "I have a disease called autism") helps me in that regard, especially since "disease" can further be reframed as "dis-ease" (i.e. something that merely indicates having difficulty instead of impossibility). If that doesn't align with the current medical advice, then I apologize for getting your hopes up, and if that further means you won't be interested in continuing a conversation, I totally understand, and will additionally apologize for wasting your time.

[–] areyouevenreal@lemm.ee 1 points 5 months ago (1 children)

It’s been a while since I worked through them myself, but IIRC he does so by observing a sense of continuity in his experience, something a thoroughly evil demon would certainly not allow. He does so by observing the flame of a candle and noticing that it keeps burning more or less undisturbed, turning the hard wax into liquid and eventually consuming it. A thoroughly evil demon obviously would not allow something like this, which gives him reason to believe that either that demon does not exist, or he is at least not thoroughly evil.

This is more picking apart the particular framing than actually addressing the problem of framing. Maybe the demon isn't evil but constructing a simulation for your own good or for the good of others. Who knows you could even be the dangerous/evil one in this scenario. Maybe the simulation is a way to keep you contained while still having some kind of life.

Perhaps you can’t, but does that have to mean you shouldn’t even try? Inasfar as I have similar symptoms, I certainly tend to find them excrutiatingly difficult to bear at times, and I would literally give anything in order to be relieved from them. Therefore I personally find it necessary to ignore such statements in order not to crush my hopes of one day being free from this burden. I’m not suggesting that you have to do the same, all I’m saying is that it works for me.

I am curious what kind do symptoms you are talking about? I haven't had anything that problematic that's completely attributable to autism. In fact a lot of problems I have had could be other disorders I haven't been diagnosed with yet, or are attributable to the situation and world I have found myself in. I've had to deal with a lot of immature people and assholes in my time, and some people who were honestly suffering and couldn't help themselves, so ended up making it other people's problem (intentionally or otherwise). Sure that's might be easier for a neurotypical to deal with, but that doesn't mean I am at fault or that autism is the problem there.

It also sounds like you could be masking here. Masking isn't a great strategy and could be part of the reason you are suffering. You may want to read up on this phenomenon for your own good. Being able to "overcome" (i.e. suppress) a symptom for a given length of time isn't really evidence that you have found a way to beat autism, any more than walking on a broken leg heals the broken leg, it just makes it worse in the long run.

Well, like I said before, I cannot promise to never say anything hurtful or offensive, all I can do is ask for mercy when I do, and continue to work as hard as I can on demonstrating that I don’t do so from a place of hatred or ill will. In that regard, I shall take your feedback to heart and simply observe that we seem to have a disagreement here, but I will refrain from pressing the issue.

I've done and said things thay are also ignorant or bigoted before. It's not like I am claiming to be perfect in any way. The important thing is realising when you have made mistakes and doing better next time. Saying nuh uh that isn't bigoted, and also I hate that word, then doubling down isn't a good thing. Maybe you don't do too well learning that maybe your the bad guy. Which isn't really even the case, it's not your fault you weren't educated on these things very well. In fact a lot of this conversation makes me think "the system" and probably your parents too have failed you big time, and that you need some kind of help.

I think you haven't had the kind of support, education, and therapy you need as many of the undiagnosed haven't, and that you might want to go and do something to rectify this.

[–] MacNCheezus 2 points 5 months ago

This is more picking apart the particular framing than actually addressing the problem of framing. Maybe the demon isn't evil but constructing a simulation for your own good or for the good of others. Who knows you could even be the dangerous/evil one in this scenario. Maybe the simulation is a way to keep you contained while still having some kind of life.

Well, the impression I had was that even just proving that the demon (if he indeed existed) wasn't entirely evil was already enough to dispell him completely, and here's why:

Let's assume, for the sake of argument, that the demon IS thoroughly evil and simply allows you to have a short experience of continuity because he enjoys the sadistic pleasure of you getting your hopes up only to crush them again when he removes it. Would that not be a torture worse than complete uncertainty and delusion?

On first examination, one might say yes, but then again, even if that candlelight is all you ever get, it's certainly better than eternal darkness or terror. So as frustrating as the situation might be IF that was all you'd ever get, I'd argue that the sadism is less evil than no continuity whatsover. A perfectly evil demon could certainly not allow this to happen, because each time you have that experience, you could use it to illuminate more of his work, and pretty soon you might end up kindling a fire big enough to dispell him entirely, at least for a while.

And isn't life kinda like that, ulimately? Some days you suffer and others you can't do no wrong, some days you're at peace and others you're at war. But even the most blessed among us aren't spared hard times, and the best you can hope for is to receive pain and pleasure in equal and managable proportions.

I am curious what kind do symptoms you are talking about? I haven't had anything that problematic that's completely attributable to autism. In fact a lot of problems I have had could be other disorders I haven't been diagnosed with yet, or are attributable to the situation and world I have found myself in. I've had to deal with a lot of immature people and assholes in my time, and some people who were honestly suffering and couldn't help themselves, so ended up making it other people's problem (intentionally or otherwise). Sure that's might be easier for a neurotypical to deal with, but that doesn't mean I am at fault or that autism is the problem there.

My biggest issue by far has been social interaction, which never really came easy to me. I often either miss social cues entirely or misinterpret them, and I have a strong tendency to overanalyze, as well as occasionally blurt out inappropriate things. In particular, I seem to have a knack for pointing out things that people don't want to hear (as perhaps you might have noticed) – and it's often not so much that they are fundamentally untrue, but that they require a generous amount of diplomacy to communicate without coming across excessively offensive.

It also sounds like you could be masking here. Masking isn't a great strategy and could be part of the reason you are suffering. You may want to read up on this phenomenon for your own good. Being able to "overcome" (i.e. suppress) a symptom for a given length of time isn't really evidence that you have found a way to beat autism, any more than walking on a broken leg heals the broken leg, it just makes it worse in the long run.

Yeah, that's very likely the case, because my parents were unfortunately not particularly helpful in coaching me towards better social behavior. They often took just as much offense at my words as random people did, and instead of teaching me how to make my points in a more measured or diplomatic manner, they would simply tell me not to talk like that at ever, period.

It's taken me a long time to realize that this self-censorship wasn't very helpful either, and even longer to dig out my original personality from underneath the rubble in order to find ways to communicate more honestly, but without repeating the mistake of simply blurting it out. It's an ongoing project for me, and this conversation is hopefully a good testimony to that.

I've done and said things thay are also ignorant or bigoted before. It's not like I am claiming to be perfect in any way. The important thing is realising when you have made mistakes and doing better next time. Saying nuh uh that isn't bigoted, and also I hate that word, then doubling down isn't a good thing. Maybe you don't do too well learning that maybe your the bad guy. Which isn't really even the case, it's not your fault you weren't educated on these things very well. In fact a lot of this conversation makes me think "the system" and probably your parents too have failed you big time, and that you need some kind of help.

I appreciate you for saying that. And yes, my parents probably did fail me, but everyone's parents eventually do. In my case, it unfortunately was compounded by the fact that my whole extended family, as well as their church (which should have acted as a secondary support sytem) failed me as well. Perhaps society did, too, but at that point in time I did not want to risk being disappointed again so I did not even try to rely on them for support.

I think you haven't had the kind of support, education, and therapy you need as many of the undiagnosed haven't, and that you might want to go and do something to rectify this.

You're probably right, but I honestly wouldn't even know where to start.

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