I've grown out of being ashamed of being a freak/weirdo the joy I get out of my special interests far out weigh my old inhibitions. I squealed a bit earlier when I saw a furry's paw mitts that shit is so dope

day 7 of new name choosing.

reached the summit in Celeste (first playthrough, with my name in game set to one of the names i was considering), excited to play more of the game but aooaugh that means its time to decide how I feel about that name, now thats its been on some kind of journey with me. I cant say I'm certain I'll use the name forever but thats perfectly fine, and at a few points in the game realizing "oh yeah, ill have to tell my friends this name" had me sob relieved tears. so I've gone ahead and used the name for the external deadline that inspired this week of intense consideration, and next will tell my friends.

and yeah Celeste definitely joins my small list of really-important-to-me games

Why is Queer Eye still just gay men?
Like…I get originally, but like throw in a lesbian and a trans girl or something at this point.

Watched a vid on pregnant luigi fan art, I ain't linking that very NFSW and too many CW to write out but it was very illuminating

Just asked my crush out and she felt the same way! I am nervous because it complicated, as I have not done polyamory before, but think that it will be a lot of fun.

Turns out the blinding pain of change wasn't worse than the quiet torture of inertia.

Recent dream has showed me if I simply I'd be able to convene with the spirits and be even more powerful talked to fire btw and SHE so

I finally did some reading on grapefruit medication interactions as it pertains to estrogen! the primary mechanism of interaction is at the "gut wall" (I was surprised to see scientific papers use this term), where the grapefruit can inhibit an enzyme that works to break down and metabolize many oral medications including estrogen. So with oral estrogen grapefruit will definitely screw with your levels and cause them to spike.

My main curiosity was injectable estrogen though. Many drugs taken by injection are unaffected by grapefruit, so I thought estrogen might be fine! As ever with biology though, apparently it's not that simple. Even with purely endogenous (body-produced) estrogen, grapefruit consumption increases levels (though more modestly than the extreme/dangerous effects seen with oral medications, the study I saw cited a peak 26% increase in cis women 8hrs after consuming grapefruit). I didn't see a ton of specific research on the mechanism of action here, but I expect it's related to the fact that the exact same enzyme responsible for breaking down medications in the gut is also present in the liver and helps break down and eliminate various substances from the bloodstream there. The study noted that average levels remained the same with whole grapefruit consumption, it was just a temporary fluctuations.

So my conclusion for my own personal consumption (please don't take this as gospel/medical advice, I'm pretty dumb) is that grapefruit intake doesn't appear to be much more dangerous than it is for cis women if you're doing injections (the reason for the study was elevated cancer risk associated with high estrogen levels so there may be some long term risks there).

It does affect levels, which is good to be aware of, and is a valid reason to be cautious, and there may be nuances I'm missing here (please tell me if you see any), but much like how preferred HRT dosage and levels vary widely by person, and even in cis women, vary drastically throughout hormonal cycles, the variance caused by grapefruit interaction is probably not harmful in any immediate way.

I guess if I was using a shorter lived ester with sharper peaks in levels and I was really worried about levels, I might be more concerned about not having grapefruit around those peak times? still probably not acutely dangerous though, IMO

i think grey hair is cool because you can dye it really easily actually

God and they'd be sooooooooo cute too! I was already an adorable child and I bet they'd be even cuter. Maybe one's got my dark blond and the other is a ginger like my mother. Or maybe they take after hypothetical wife and I can see her hypothetical pretty face in them all the time...

You've met with a terrible fate, haven't you?

"Yeah, yeah, I know I'm hot, y'all don't have to stare so much." I think to myself as people keep eyeing at me weirdly

I’m currently looking for more nail stamping plates and came across this:

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Am I imagining things, or is this actually Lenin’s face on the right side?