RiotDoll

I've been practicing daily for a couple of years now.

This year I had a pretty big break-thru in terms of coming up with my own music. A big issue i've had is a distaste for learning other people's music. A good guitar song makes me want to play, but not play the song. It's someone else's song! It's one hell of a mindset, but I only look up published songs when I want to know how they created a specific music phrase, and I generally avoid it. I feel strongly about this for some reason.

But I am kind of stuck. I have some chord progressions I play in, and I have a handful of snippets that I always repeat and lean on to give the stuff i'm playing a loose structure, but turning these progressions and "pieces" of song into a proper song is driving me insane because it's not clicking in my head.

I thought maybe I need to find some folks to play with, and yeah, I do, and I've put out feelers locally for people to play with, especially other trans women, but I've also been searching for advice on songwriting.

What I find really isn't helpful. For one, I am not starting with a melody; a ton of this content assumes you are.

Two, a lot of it just really doesn't discuss the- I guess philosophy and approach? Mechanically i'm already at a point where I can play a song, but I haven't been able to self-discover a process for taking my own material and whipping it into shape, and focusing it up?

I have very little formal music education, i've just been playing every day, pick up a chord or two as I experiment, and stringing together sounds that I like, but I'm really keen to find somebody or someone that can help me develop a more functional creative process, and I'm wondering if this comm might have anybody willing/able to help me work through this stuff?

Hey y'all. I'm still trying to get the funds together for (mostly) non food essential items, I tried yesterday to no avail, but I urgently need some funds to get toilet paper, detergent, and some food.

but i really need this stuff. I hope someone can help :-/

pm me for details Thanks y'all

Hey y'all. I'm trying to get the funds together for (mostly) non food essential items. I need to be able to wash clothes, and I need to wipe my ass lol

I'm still looking for work but ??? I have no idea when things will relent. I've been actively job seeking for a year now and somehow havent even sniffed a job. It has never been this bad.

but i really need this stuff, and some food if there's anything left for it.

Thanks y'all

the power outage from the storm wiped out almost everything i had, and while i hate making these threads, i've gotta try and fundraise something to get some more food. We finally have power back, but our perishables are long gone.

If you can help, please message me for contact info thanks :(

several days ago i had a freak storm hit us, and it knocked the power out with such drama that I am now looking at a freezer full of spoiled food. i haven't been able to cook and everything in there that's not shelf stable is useless.

This was a decent chunk of the usable food from the food pantry this month

I'm kinda fucked.

If you can help? It would mean a lot. The power is back on I guess, but I'm left with fucking nothing.

I want to scream.

payment details are @ktkatte for paypal/venmo. Thanks to anyone who can help.

My insurance just decided to stop covering my HRT and i'm trying to raise money for it. I'm bumming shots off a friend right now and a) I hate shots b) i don't want to have to rely on their supply longer than i have to. c) the high variability in estrogen day to day is making me less stable mentally and it's disrupting everything

if you can help, thank you.

please pm for payment details if you can help

thanks

my last one didn't work out, but I still really need some help getting some groceries.

If you can sapre $25, it'll get me a few days of food and that'll help me immensely right now. I have no job and things are kind of dire right now.

pm me for any app handles

I'm low on food, my next pantry run can only happen a few days from now. I'd like to get a few things to tide me over if possible.

I hate asking, but I do need the help if it can be spared. The more the better, but $20 would cover the cost of eating today and let me make some leftovers for tomorrow possibly, so it would mean a lot.

please PM if you can help

I really need to get some things at the store, hoping someone can help. I've been home less than 24 hours and it's like life doesn't wait i guess.

if you can help, please reach out

thank you

My mom has been severely disabled for honestly more of my life than she's been healthy at this point. It goes back to 2005. She's 61 right now, her brain is kinda addled from oxygen depriv and a lot of medical events, so idk what her finances look like but I can guess she needs more help than she's let on. Her phones are off, her gas is off, and a bundle of other shit is cutting off. I didn't know this till yesterday. she's in the hospital (which is fairly normal tbh). Her fixed income runs at a loss just paying bills and eating as little as possible, and her family are kind of worthless maga shitheads who think this is all somehow her fault. My dad's a deadbeat and they're divorced anyway, she's single, however support amounts to what him, my sister, and myself can divert to her, which is well short of what she needs, especially since right now i'm also dependent on outside help to be solvent.

I'm going down to texas to probably say my goodbyes to my grandfather, who is dying rapidly. My family is mostly dirt poor, and organizing my airfare has drained the people who can actually help her. However, I kind of need her in the loop because her place is 1/2 of my shelter down there for this stay. I can work around no gas for cooking, but I can't really do much with her if i can't communicate with her.

She can restore her phone service for $280. I have no idea about gas, but she asked for $500 total yesterday, which just isn't fucking possible for me. Neither number is something I can really deliver, but I figured i'd try here.

With that phone off, she can't even really get the help she needs. She has one dirt poor ride or die neighbor friend, and i believe she'll do what she can, but there's really no support network here if she's fully cut off from me and my sister. She relies on us to get her any extra support, be that with talking to family or negotiating rides and help from friends, it's all kinda on us, and we do it from hundreds, and thousands, of miles away so we are super limited.

Starting to think i need to set my shit aside and go back in the closet to live with and help her, but I can't do that just yet. I'm just trying to make sure i'm in communication for the month i'll be in the area if at all possible, but I can't make that happen without external help.

If you can help, anything i get sent right now will go to her bills

i can furnish details in private message.

not sure what i'm expecting but i gotta try i guess.

hey so, i wanna go down a kind of deranged rabbit hole, as i sometimes wanna do, and i need to be able to browse local nyc news through the 1960s, but doing that is gated behind a lot of paywalls as far as i can tell

i really don't have the fucking funds to drop on archive access, so i'm wondering how people get around this?

I happen to live in a different big metro but i can't imagine their archives are either easy to access nor worth the hassle of travelling 2 hours via transit to check out, but i guess i will if i have to.

hoping hexbear has solutions

thanks