ZILtoid1991

I want to get into writing (primarily political), and while I've written some to those, I want to get as far away from centralized social media as I can.

https://github.com/ZILtoid1991/iota/blob/7299074d7013ab5664415ed9c9b9fc02bd29cfc9/source/iota/controls/polling.d#L80
https://github.com/ZILtoid1991/iota/blob/7299074d7013ab5664415ed9c9b9fc02bd29cfc9/source/iota/window/oswindow.d#L323

I have this very non-standard event loop for an input-output library. It has issues with processing and receiving certain messages. I'm only getting input language change messages by doing certain tricks (usually by changing the input method on the taskbar, then moving the window), but even then it often makes my app hanging. I also don't get any device handles from raw input messages (always null, even with devices that supposed to have all time). It's like if some other function calls, that would make things work as should, aren't mentioned in the MS documentation, and is just assumed it's common knowledge. Similar thing happened to me with SDL, when I was pulling my hair for not being able to get audio working, I even wrote my alternative library, then someone told me it's common knowledge that you should call yet another function before starting the audio stream, except none of the few existing tutorials mentioned it (most just recommended you to use existing sound playback libraries instead of doing your own thing), and the documentation wasn't clear on it (by not clear, it did not mention explicitly, other than being named prepareAudioStream or something).

I'm likely on a yet another burnout cycle, and I have little to no possibility of meeting with people thanks to the place I live. I also have trouble with socializing in general, even in online spaces.

Since my current job I don't make enough to move or to live alone, and the only better place would cost me more than the Hungarian minimum wage (of which I make less than thanks to labor programs 🤢), I cannot really change this, also would only marginally help me since I always had issues with socializing.

I'm thinking about creating a separate Mastodon account for promoting my game engine, and I'm looking for a suitable instance.

My game engine is open-source, so both gamedev and opensource-related instances would be good.

Here's the situation:

• I work at an institution as a desk clerk in Hungary's infamous employment program, that barely pays (half of minimum wage to keep the other employees wage barely above minimum), and with very limited leave days. Only 20 days paid, no unpaid leave for "work moral" reasons (!!!), and the doctors barely give out any sick leaves (none for regular check ups!).
• My paid leaves are tied until the kitchen gets rebuilt, due to then they would have to put one of the maintenance guys in my place.
• I'm disabled. I have autism, which makes this kind of work extremely stressful to me, which made even harder by the attitude many Hungarians have towards any office work. In addition I also have epilepsy, and my medication has really strong side effects, many of which are so bad that I should have been given different medication, except my doctor refuses to see me. In theory, I could get some benefits with my autism, but I would have to go through very invasive and humiliating tests to "make sure I'm not lying about my disability" (long story short: Fidesz won the 2010 election on the moral panic of "welfare queens", because far-right websites found Mercedeses with disability cards). Nothing for the epilepsy stuff though, even if my medication messes up my sleep cycle and it alone disallows me to drive cars, which limits my job options.

On this Saturday (tomorrow) my boss asked me to get to work, because of a "family day", for no real pay and no additional leaves, especially not for a month at least, because the aforementioned construction work. We will have even more visitors than usual, and live music (which is popular songs sang and played very badly on a keyboard). I'm already very tired and stressed out due to my low tolerance for this kind of work, and on top of it, I have extra home responsibiities on the weekend. However, she negs me to come.

I help whenever I can. I gave them computer equipment as they're not allowed to spend money on it, or else they would anger the main Fidesz voter base by spending money on "Playstations". I have stayed on many occassions when I was needed. However, tomorrow, I can't.

Should I lie about a terrible headache and/or a food poisoning? She wrote in a few paid leaves for such occassions before, so this should work.

Screen is completely black, so good luck with the USB OTG mouse trick. Phone is a Galaxy A8 (2018).