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I’m giving up on the idea of transitioning again.
Yeah, it feels like it's impossible to make it in this world right now. However, sacrificing that piece of yourself for an easier life makes for a more depressing life. The one of the things that keeps me from using fent again and just sleeping through everything is because gender euphoria is a far more friendly dragon to chase than drugs. When I feel like a pretty girl, I don't feel the need to be high all the time. Working towards that is the only resolve.'
I don't mean to get overly presumptuous here, but I've seen many of your posts and have walked in many of the same paths. If you truly believe that you are trans in your heart of hearts, living an image that isn't congruent with that is dissociation of the self that leads to people like us needing a little something else to keep existing. Then eventually that something else takes over and ruins the few good things that we've managed to keep in our lives.
I don't know what exactly has happened, but I'm worried for you. If you need to go into hiding for safety, I'm not judging that, I don't want to make you feel like you're doing anything wrong if you're just doing what you have to do to be safe. However, I think you should really consider the mental health impact of giving up any hope on transitioning. This isn't just giving up on transitioning from what I've seen in your posts, giving up this hope sounds like you're giving up all hope for your own life. We'd really miss you if you just stopped posting one day. We'd miss you if you gave up your entire self to the selfish and narrow minded whims of others. Like I said, if it's a safety thing, I sincerely apologize and hope you're able to stay safe. But unless this is just a reality you absolutely have to accept or die, the more you think about never transitioning, the more you bottle up your feelings of gender dysphoria, the less stable you'll be.
I had been taking HRT for two years when I started using meth, and then gave up—idk why, I just lost one of my meds and said “Fuck, why bother.”
I started doing DIY in the spring/summer of 2022, on and off, then made it official tail end of that year. Then I ran out of refills and just didn’t care.
I recently stopped calling myself a trans woman because it feels like a joke. I still wanted to do gender-affirming stuff though. But it’s hard for me to look in the mirror anymore and not see an ugly cis man. I am always going to wear that Mark of Cain. I have never fit in as femme; the fact that I have never lived a day of my life “as a woman,” made even worse by my being attracted to women, basically being a straight cis man in all but name, has always made me an outcast. I can’t even have a healthy friendship with non-men.
Nobody, not even the person who used to my friend, has ever seen me as female and it’s absurd to expect anything else. I don’t belong at all.
First off, this is the toughest thing to suggest, but the thing that many doctors would suggest. Go to a psych and DO NOT mention your meth use. Many meth addicts just have ADHD. I have untreated ADHD (can't handle any stimulant for more than a day though so I've had no real battle with stimulant addiction aside from cigs and coke weekends. I will forget to smoke, drink, any of my normal vices, for hours because I took a tiny amount of amphetamines, and meth does it too. Quite simply, your brain doesn't generate enough dopamine to keep you motivated, so meth objectively becomes an appealing option.
I know what you mean. It feels like people who agree that I'm trans are all just buying in on the delusion. It's like yeah, you might call me she, but I'm literally dating you and you won't grab my tits, even though other boys roasted me for having big tits for a "boy". She hasn't touched any part of me sexually other than my penis in months. Yeah, it makes me really fucking dysphoric and suicidal. But at some point, I had to accept that I literally do not value her opinion and want to be a pretty girl without her, and that's just how it is unfortunately. You're worth working towards.
First paragraph made me think of the person who used to be my friend; it used to be my only happy memory, now I hyperventilate and have to stop myself from screaming.
That's a difficult feeling. I hope you are safe