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I find no motivation in working for myself (infosec.pub)

submitted 3 months ago by Findmysec@infosec.pub to c/asklemmy@lemmy.ml

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The title is really vague, so I'll try to clarify my intentions here:

I am an ardent supporter of FOSS. It will be greatly beneficial for my life and especially my privacy to self-host such software. Yet, I cannot find much motivation to do so.

However, when it comes to hosting software for public use, I can usually give my utmost concentration and dedication.

This is not how I want my life to be. I want to be motivated for myself as well as for the community. And if that's not possible, I need to trick my brain into bringing me into that kind of zone for myself.

What do I do? What would you do in this situation?

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[–] jbrains@sh.itjust.works 1 points 3 months ago (1 children)

Is there also something you don't want to happen that seems likely to happen if you try?

For example, I work with many folks who struggle to leave projects unfinished, so they resist starting for reasons they don't quite understand.

[–] Findmysec@infosec.pub 1 points 3 months ago (1 children)

I definitely fear projects being unfinished, and the apparent "mountain" of work that might be the new personal project I want to work on definitely intimidates me

[–] jbrains@sh.itjust.works 1 points 3 months ago (1 children)

Aha, so that's something in the way: it might be more work than it's worth to you. Either the uncertainty interferes with you or the certainty that it demands much more effort than it's worth interferes with you. Does one of these hit you more than the other?

I'm certainly familiar with both feelings with regards to different projects.

So... Let me address each of those, just in case.

Can you just do some of it and then stop and be satisfied with the part you've done?
Can you start, figure out that it's more trouble than it's worth, then undo and go back to where you were before?

I don't merely mean "Are you able to?" but also "How would you feel about those outcomes?"

Peace.

[–] Findmysec@infosec.pub 1 points 3 months ago (1 children)

It used to be that I didn't really grasp the scope of most projects, and so after research I used to dive right in. These days I'm more jaded and try to make better long-term choices in terms of software (which is ridiculously hard because you never know, example: Terraform is no longer FOSS).

The extra work is usually in optimisations or security configuration, both of which I'd like to have done but apparently I don't feel horrible enough to actually do it.

Yes, I have done both of what you said. It's not a hard-and-fast rule for me, but it does make me a bit miserable, that I didn't finish what I started. Sometimes, that acts as a catalyst for me to get back into it and actually try to finish it, or leave it completely after understanding that it's beyond me.

Thanks for the advice.

[–] jbrains@sh.itjust.works 1 points 3 months ago (1 children)

In your shoes, I'd want to understand more about what makes me miserable about not finishing things. In fact, I was in those shoes a decade or so ago. I take a much more measured view of that now. If I genuinely want to finish it or need to finish it, I'll finish it. The rest is noise.

Everyone gets there in their own time. Meantime, you're welcome, good luck, and peace.

[–] Findmysec@infosec.pub 1 points 3 months ago* (last edited 3 months ago) (1 children)

Isn't feeling like that a good thing though? If you're sufficiently miserable there's a good chance you'll actually get the work done. This also works if you feel embarrassed or feel that others depend on you, but in my case I'm going to have to depend on the former.

[–] jbrains@sh.itjust.works 1 points 3 months ago

Not always. Sometimes one feels miserable, fears the reactions of others, and still doesn't do the task. Sometimes we call this "depression". Not recommended.