If I had lost touch with a friend and then suddenly I got some money they willed to me after they killed themselves, I would be pretty sad about it. Even if I had forgotten about them until I got the money. I'd also feel very guilty that we lost touch because I would think maybe I could have done something.

[–] pixeltree@lemmy.blahaj.zone 1 points 5 days ago

Yeah and for now the crushing guilt is keeping me pinned down. At some point, things will get bad enough that I no longer care who I hurt and I'll do it anyways and I'm such a piece of shit for it. Ah well, add it to the pile of reasons