Long story short, I'm a security guard and after a couple of months decided that with a history of suicidal ideation I probably shouldn't carry a pistol, I told the doctor at my work, they said I could no longer carry a pistol and I figured they were going to bring me in today (yesterday now), fire me and that's that. Well, somehow I was not fired, I got in at 1:30, sat for 2.5 hours waiting for something to happen and the people who should have done the firing just went the fuck home... So, I continued to sit. I sat until 9:00 when I was told to go collect trash from the various guard posts. Ok. Then they told me to report in tomorrow at 7:30am (I don't work at 7:30) and they would have me working days until "my issue is resolved". So tomorrow I'll just let them know that it's not going to be resolved, hopefully they can me then, if I quit I cannot claim un-employment. This is weird as hell because I may end up in a stalemate as a glorified janitor until I can find another job and resign.
Hey, thanks so much for doing this.
There's a couple people in my life I've really, really worried about, but who put off actually doing anything responsible with their firearms while they were/still are going through such inner turbulence.
Its weighed on them, and even though I've tried to be respectful about how I express my concerns, I worry that my being concerned weighs on them, too, but it means so many things- having to admit to problems, face them, call attention to them, face financial repercussions, etc.
I don't know you, but I'm so extremely proud of you.
This is one of those things that should be common sense behavior, but is actually an incredibly difficult action to take. It says so much of you as a person.
Even if you can't be Happy, being a person with that kind of integrity is something you should allow yourself to appreciate.