I recently found this channel where the guy does really compelling reviews and explanations of books.
https://www.youtube.com/@QuinnsIdeas
I admit I'm a little ashamed how much I'm enjoying it because part of me is saying "Why are you listening to some dude talk about books instead of reading the books?" But I'm old and kinda lazy and lost interest in character development arcs and relationships and just want to know about the cool high-concept sci-fi ideas and storylines. This guy does a great job of giving me all the sci-fi I'm jonesing for in a short, and visually interesting format.
I heard so much about the Three Body Problem series but just don't have the time to invest in book series' the way I used to. But I found his channel and in about 4 20-30m videos got a really good impression of the series' ideas and stories and just really enjoyed watching. Dude has a great voice for this too and is just a great ambassador of nerddom in general.
If you've fallen behind in your reading and don't expect to have time to catch up- you should check this guys channel out.
Honestly, most writers probably feel the way you feel.
But having read hundreds, if not thousands, of writers...no one is particularly special, except maybe to a specific person for their own reasons.
If the story isn't good, no amount of technical wizardry can save it. And if you can't write so that 95% of it just slides by the eye, then it doesn't matter how good the story is.
Cheers. I know that in my heart, having put down more books than I've finished.