dogerwaul

joined 6 days ago
[–] dogerwaul@pawb.social 8 points 2 hours ago

real unfortunate no one was harmed.

[–] dogerwaul@pawb.social 1 points 6 hours ago

i have struggled with understanding my "lack of drive" concerning employment ever since i became aware of my issues. i used to blame myself and think of myself as fundamentally broken or selfish and cruel. i'd think to myself "other people can do this, this is a normal expected thing, do it" without realizing that while performing labor is normal it isn't normal to be forced into working an excessively long schedule in order to remain alive. the problem i have isn't that i have to do things and i wish people who reject my limitation would understand that. i want what i do to fucking matter to the community i exist in. i want the one life i get to experience to be tilted more towards our individuality and not the demands of the oligarchy. i guess not being able to handle living in a fucking prison makes me "disabled." fine.

[–] dogerwaul@pawb.social 1 points 7 hours ago

i do hope it doesn't take that long for me, but i am under no delusion that it'll be speedy. i did have them mail me some paperwork to fill out recently after submitting my initial applications months ago, so.. hey.. progress! i'll definitely be contacting someone in my area then.

[–] dogerwaul@pawb.social 3 points 2 days ago (1 children)

hey real quick, why are you even bothering to leave this comment? do you realize you are posting in a community meant for disabled users telling somebody who considers themselves disabled that "relying on other people to survive" is going to "make things worse" for me because i'm not "fixing the problem?" this is an astonishingly negative view about me and my limitations based on nothing. you tell me to try to find work i like to do as if that isn't something i have pursued.

me having more free time doesn't equate to having more struggles, i don't know why you would assume such a thing not knowing anything about me other than this post. this was very unhelpful and honestly insulting.

 

TikTok has become a massive competitor in the ecommerce industry as of late, and their global gross sales within their shop program doubled from 2023 to 2024. TikTok's priority has now shifted towards creators who sell products and even encourages new users to begin their entrepreneurship within TikTok and become their own store. TikTok wants everyone to sell sell sell and that is simply not sustainable. You will eventually have a community of salespeople pitching to each other.

Not only that but TikTok is extremely deceptive and manipulative. Their algorithm dangles success in front of creators and sellers and then pulls it out from under them to keep them on their toes so they generate more and more for TikTok. There are so many independent stores on TikTok who now claim selling on the platform has become their full-time job. That's nooooooooooot good lol.

Their shop is growing bigger, doubling in size every year (same trend from 2022 to 2023), and too many people are relying upon continued success to keep themselves financially stable. When this bubble bursts it's going to be a disaster for these folks.

[–] dogerwaul@pawb.social 4 points 3 days ago (2 children)

ah, thanks for the information. i will do some research in my area then.

[–] dogerwaul@pawb.social 4 points 3 days ago (4 children)

i'm ready to do whatever is asked barring anything associated with a cost like acquiring a lawyer, unfortunately. i have had the same doctor for the past 11 years and he encouraged me to try and apply. he can verify and vouch the many things i have tried and still struggle with, but.. idk the process, so i'm sure i'll be sent to specialists i have no rapport with. either way i'm at a loss here. this is a last resort. next step is more permanent.

 

this is mostly intended as a vent post, but it's also a bit aimless and might contain questions anyone is more than welcome to answer.

i am 35 years old. i entered the American workforce at the age of 17 with my first job at an outdoor restaurant stand. over the next 18 years i will struggle to hold down a job for over a year. i am unable to function in the capitalist society i find myself trapped in.

every single job i have had since entering my 20s has gone horribly wrong. i'd find myself leaving my work area to have crying fits in the bathroom, anxiety attacks and depressive episodes would follow me all day, and i'd experience physical sensations as if my skin was crawling off my body telling me to remove myself from my environment and relax because i'm overwhelmed and stressed. jobs have tried to work with me by offering me unpaid time off to take care of my mental health, but when i inevitably come back the progress i made slowly fades away. i have had hospital stays and medication adjustments to no avail. i simply cannot reconcile my existence against the way our world operates.

capitalism and the profit-seekers of the world have made human life not worth living, imo. the point of life is to make it our own and these parasites have robbed the rest of us the ability to navigate consciousness freely. instead of organizing together as a community and assisting each other as needed, we enslave each other to a 9-hour, five day work week and compensate with barely fucking anything of value. then we all go into a ton of debt and never find peace, all while our corporate overlords usher in a technocratic fascist future to the benefit of fucking nobody other than themselves.

the depression, anxiety, panic, and fear i have felt for 18 years all stems from having my independence as a human being taken away and controlled. turns out, i can't fucking deal. and it feels like i am mocked for it by people who i would even consider friends. "it seems like you merely don't want to work, leander" is something i've heard before. trust me, i'd love to not have to worry about money and how i'm going to eat or afford to live. i promise if i could work i would just fucking do it.

i have been fired several times for taking too many days off, calling in, calling out, tardiness, etc.. just because getting out of bed is such a hurdle to overcome i simply cannot do it sometimes. i try, i always do, i promise i try my hardest to be what everyone wants me to be, but i can't do it reliably so can i get some fucking help, please?

i just want to not worry about being alive. give me federal money, i'll admit i'm a loser and a leech and a mooch and live my disabled ass away from good ol' exceptional America and her citizens. i'll live in the woods and only come out to go shopping. do we have a deal?

[–] dogerwaul@pawb.social 26 points 4 days ago (1 children)

it's funny and interesting but isn't this just an LLM doing what it does and predicting the conversation based on a large number of variables?

[–] dogerwaul@pawb.social 12 points 5 days ago* (last edited 5 days ago)

you're assuming those things aren't being done simultaneously. additionally, the type of misplaced violent rage you will continue to witness is born from oppression and having no voice or power. eventually, the caged animal thrashes regardless of what it damages, itself included. it might not be rational or logical but it has to be expected as an outcome. we are not going to stop people from burning shit down. it simply will never happen. too many people feel they have no other way to make it known that fascism will not be the way of life here than to scare the shit out of our leaders through violence and a demonstration of the people's willingness to execute.

you can fucking hate that this is happening, but it is always going to. i'm not personally going to condemn these kinds of responses because i recognize it as an emotional and forced reaction to living year after year in a country that doesn't give a shit about you but will exploit you until you die. tesla is a representation of what the last 70 years have come to: we are now speeding on the path towards technofascism and they're not even doing it behind our backs. people are going to take their anger out on the fascist car endorsed by our fascist presidential figurehead and sold by our South African fascist president.