sunshinesoul

oh getting zapped is definitely not fun that's happened to me before too but i think i got genuinely electrocuted lmfao. was ordered to plug in my laptop to the end of a chain of (edit: a little over 10) surge protectors (i know.) if you've ever felt the feeling of one of those electric gum pranks it was kind of like that but way more...intense? felt it all the way up to my shoulder for a few seconds before i managed to break away.

i was mildly electrocuted in high school via the suggestion of a teacher to do something a little dangerous (very weird story) and it felt weird but i ended up fine and i was told explicitly not to go to the nurse. totally not sketchy at all

i’m not sure! i’m still figuring things out on my end, it could be that but i’m feeling a euphoric way about both changing my gender expression and labeling myself differently. i didn’t feel that way when i first thought i was agender, i only felt apathetic. im also drawn to a name change from my severely feminine name to something less so, but that was a long time coming lol.

I have a friend who is in their early 20s and only started nursing work a little over a year ago and they are frequently appointed as the charge nurse. i don’t work in that field so i don’t know how things really work but it seems like a widespread thing

do you accept donations? i don’t want mine anymore

i’ve sort of been realizing that i’m not exactly agender. i’ve been presenting as my AGAB and it feels a little miserable and like a performance and im starting to feel like id be much happier presenting with more of a masculine lean than feminine.

The Origin of My Depression by Uboa. Do be warned that it is a bit abrasive with depressing themes if that’s not your thing!

project coconut begins (video might be loud)

so its joever right