Hey. I might be judging this Situation wrong but I feel like my wife cant do anything alone and she never leaves the house and I have no time for me.
Sorry but my phone is making capitel Letters cause english isnt my main language and sorry for Bad english.
My wife and I are 31 and been together 12 years. I love her.
Since a few years I notice how all her friends moved away, she failed her exams and has nothing. So I understand her Situation.
I noticed she cant do anything alone or always wants me to join in even though we spent the whole day together already.
She cant just bake a cake. She always ask if I can help and Im like sure okay and in the end all I do is messure sugar, melt butter... its like a thing Id do alone to unwind.
She wants to go eat ice in town. I say no I dont wsnt to and she is like "okay" and goes watching TV. I wsnt to play computer but feel bad because she is bored, watches no shows... all she does is watch garden tv where they build St.pid Pools lol.
If I were her Id go without "me" and unwind. Heck, if she wants to stsy home I go drink coffee alone or with friend and just scroll reddit and watch ppl. She cant. She stays home and waits til im done playing. The thing is I could play forever. My friends all play starcraft and overwatch.
But if I do play I cant enjoy it cause I have a wife a room next to me being bored. I feel like I have to entertain her.
She has no hobbies, all her friends moved away, she has no job,... and if I were hin her Position Id still be fine cause I have so much to do. I can go swim, watch ppl, do nothing, play games, read, cook etc and all alone. Sometimes I enjoy if Im alone which is rare.
This weekend she visits her friends and is gone til tomorrow and its sad because now I feel so free. I can sleep in without feeling bad, i can game all night. This morning I was in the local Spa and just sat in whirlpool 3 hours alone. It was so good knowing I can do all that without having the feeling to entertain someone waiting for me.
I feel so bad. I feel bad for wishing to live alone again or maybe wishing shed be gone atleast once a week. If I coulf only have like 1 or 2 days I wouldnzt see anyone id be happy. I mean no one. Im really happy alone, I can Bing watch shows or podcasts and be happy. Take my phone or pc and Id just go to the local coffee store and sit for 4 hours.
Maybe Im the problem because I feel like I dont need anyone. I love her though and cant wait til she comes back tomorrow but those 2 days are so nice.
Another random examples of what I mean:
-
She wants to cook and is hungry. Im not hungry and dont wanna cook. She eats cereal. If I were her Id still cook lol. Now I feel bad cause she is eating garbage cause I dont wanna cook and eat.
-
She wants to visit her parents. Okay, fine but I stay home. She: Ill go lay down
Mh okay? Now I cant go to the local coffee Shop and drink coffee cause she is sleeping cause I dont want to go to her parents. Okay I could go to the coffee Shop but I now know she is either joining, which is fine, but rather would go to her parents. I feel bad again.
- Vacation. I ask where she wants to go this year, she says she doesnt care. I say mh ok... Thailand? She says "we were there last year" and Im like "yeah was nice" and now I know she doesnt want to go there but cant say a Different destination. Now Im stuck. I ask Malaysia. She says "maybe".
Wtf now I cant book a flight. I know she wants to go to Sri Lanka. Why cant she just say it???
I can’t comment on the depression thing that others have mentioned. You’ll know if that rings true for your situation or not.
I’m gonna say something to you that someone had to say to me once: she really likes you. That may explain why she enjoys spending time with her.
The other day I was asking my SO “what’s the highest compliment a woman could be paid by their partner”? She responded “it would be ‘I really enjoy spending time with you’”. I realized in that moment that while I have tons of fun playing video games, watching shows, or even just sitting alone by my self, she really enjoys being around me and spending time together. It’s how she’s wired.
And even more than that, because I’m “her man”, even when she’s out and about with other friends, her experience would be enhanced if I were out with her.
This changed me in a couple of ways.
Beyond the above, I think it’s important to acknowledge that the guilt you experience when you turn her down is coming from inside yourself. It may be worth talking about it with a wise friend or (better yet) a therapist (which is something helpful that I did). You may have a habit of taking too much responsibility for the wellness of others.
Congrats on having a person who really loves you! For introverts like us, being around someone all the time makes those rare moments when we’re alone truly euphoric. However, I can tell you from experience that the “alone time” gets old reeeeeal quick when it’s unlimited.