This/I do not feel fine, but at least there's troll coping to fill the void.
Edit: after venting to a friend about this during an anxiety attack, she gave me contact information to an office that was able to schedule me for next month. I feel very fortunate and relieved. I'm also extremely appreciative of not just her, but all of you! This is a wonderfully supportive community, you're all amazing people
I agree with you. I don't want to set myself up to rely strictly on medication, I want to utilize it like a tool and try to find what works best for me. I'll still have work I have to do regardless to maintain myself. Medication can only do so much. My goals do include reevaluating my current medication, but what I want most is a more defined direction in which I can look to better understand myself. I feel that will ultimately help me more than any medication.