Agender is close. Gender apathetic. I have M on my state ID but whatevs. While I can feel humiliation, I don't feel emasculation. But recently seeing the degree that trans folk know they are their gender identity (and also seeing alpha male types who look masculine to us but can't seem to be butch enough for themselves, it's like seeing my queerness as lensing of stuff behind a black hole.

I could pass as cis-het except that I'm an ASD misanthropic goblin, so I exude a bit odd wherever I go.

[–] Franzia@lemmy.blahaj.zone 4 points 1 year ago (1 children)

Oh I love that. I'm a bit odd too :3 Right now I just dress kinda... cutesy queer with florals and patterns and lots of colors.

I think, I'm a trans binary female but there is always a bit of wiggle room. I wanna express it in a tomgirl sort of way. A lot of my fashion icons rock male cargo shorts, for example. But I won't like, ever tell anyone this. Because I want to be socially affirmed as female, and only visually express the details.

I've also heard of this sort of black hole feeling you are talking about! I think gender apathetic is a great word for it.

But if you can't feel emasculation, try on this dress 😋 why pass as male? Why pass as human?

[–] uriel238@lemmy.blahaj.zone 2 points 1 year ago

I don't think I've worn dresses, but I've certainly worn skirts and sarongs, more because of the clime and because I was in jammies mode. I have walked dogs in such attire and gotten funny looks for my effort.

Funny thing, I have passed as non-human before playing Left 4 Dead years and years ago. In my resistance to going vox, I had created hot-keys for common dialog bits (calling special infected, calling when I'm going to set off a crescendo event, dealing with witches, etc.) And took advantage of the medium to spell things out, so I was able to engage in most dialog quicker than typing. So others assumed I was a very smart bot.