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submitted 5 months ago by Kyrgizion@lemmy.world to c/adhd@lemmy.world

It took ~5 minutes and there was ZERO pain.

I even anticipated this. There was no reason to think it would be hard in any kind of way.

Why am I like this?? Why is my brain such mush when it comes to my executive functioning while several other parts of my mental being are more than fine or even slightly supercharged (when I'm not depressed or out of mania)

The kicker? The appointment isn't for a doctor or a dentist or something else that would be "normal" to dread.

It's an appointment to pick up a brand new company car. A 2023 Mercedes EQA to the tune of 50K€. Most people would JUMP at that kind of opportunity, but not me. No, I sit there contemplating whether I even deserve a car that costs twice my annual salary, and that I'm just deluding myself into thinking I'm a valued part of society, that someone will realize they made a mistake and such a car was never meant for me (or "anyone like me").

This after a double dose of 15mg ritalin, by the way. Without it I would never have been able to push myself over that limit to begin with.

Fuckin' a...

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[-] fogstormberry@lemmy.blahaj.zone 11 points 5 months ago* (last edited 5 months ago)

ive been struggling to make a normal-ass drs apt for the same time. enjoy your car!

edit: I did not mean to minimize your struggle if it came across that way

this post was submitted on 11 Jan 2024
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