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I’m existing been stressing cause work project is wrapping up. I need a vacation.

i’m on my third day of a sore throat. doc confirmed it’s not strep, and i do seem to be slowly recovering, but ugh being sick sucks.

pretty alright! finished my last exam yesterday, and will be needing to find a job for the summer between semesters, so i’ve been a bit stressed and nervous for needing to do that and just the future generally. i have one atm, but i don’t think i’ll be able to get as many hours as i’d like, and tuition isn’t going to pay itself 🙃

Not bad! Had my first shift in a new job last night and I LOVED it! It's just a part time thing a few hours a week but I really feel like I'm playing to my strengths in my job at last.

Had a bit of a wild weekend (happy pride!) so I've been doing my best to eat clean, exercise and take lots of supplements. Did my first spin class in years yesterday and it wasn't complete torture! Still not feeling 100% but I've definitely been through worse.

It's OK, although not very good.

For one, I now suffers from sleep OCD. Every time I put my head into the pillow, I always have the feeling that I slept just slightly out of the middle of the pillow, even though I clearly don't.

This happens to other things, too. I kept changing the fan, the sleep position, the blanket, over and over again. And I think it's a main reason why I can't sleep well in the past couple of days. I have a really good sleep yesterday tho.

I also, temporarily, develop a fear for sleep. I don't know if this comes from me watching too much creepy TV IDs, or that one thought about a TV sign-off that is straight up horror movie to terrify the children, but whenever I sleep, I feel a sense of danger, like something is gonna come out of nowhere and devour me.

I don't know what it is. I just know it is something terrifying.

Anyways, in the past week I have been focusing more on my social media presence. I don't know why but I seem to focus more on how's my account doing, how's my art doing, etc.

I gave my boots to the local cobbler (one of two in a 30 km radius) because the sole is coming off and getting hole-y. This guy, whom I assumed would have maybe a couple repair jobs every few months, is completely overbooked and thus I'll see my boots in maybe five weeks or so again. But, honestly, I'm glad for him that his little shop is booming (relatively speaking)