I’d cry first taking it

I know I did! The good thing was that it completely subsided my severe anxiety and I've been off meds ever since after they did their job.

Whatever hurdles you still have, dear Stamets, I hope you're able to keep working towards getting meds. Some fiction-worthy circumstances made my own undertaking SUCK, and it took other extreme health trials for me to even tackle the whole process properly in the first place, cause all that stuff made me a pro with "just one more day of this shit, and I can die tomorrow, right?", but so far it's been utterly worthwhile. We can all cry, together!

Nice! I was in a similar place with having to juggle other conditions and medication changes to be able to take stimulants, which exacerbated the hell out of everything, but damned if it didn't need to be done for my health, anyway, haha. I hope the beta blockers help!

Going through your life well into adulthood while being told "Oh, that's normal. Everyone does that." can make it a bit different. People in this situation may also learn to try to compensate for it, but it can sometimes only do so much; until they hit a brick wall and can't further progress with their lives.

The constant questioning to yourself of do you actually have the disorder, maybe you just need even more sleep, or maybe your mind is just making it up can plague adults who've dealt with it unmitigated their whole lives. The feeling does fade, but it can take time.

I imagine the culture which a lot of millennials also grew up in, with D.A.R.E. and the rebounding effect of the war on drugs could also play a subconscious factor of thinking "meth" is bad and only done by meth-heads and crazy people.

If you need ask that question, I'm not sure I could offer an answer that may be satisfactory, or relatable to your own experiences (because it most definitely differs)! Though, I know it can come with its own cons for some, it's fantastic that were able to receive a childhood diagnosis, and don't feel similarly to adults who grew up with their ADHD symptoms being dismissed to the point that we regularly question our own validity. I have my own [insert sob story here] reasons for why I doubt myself, but no, I don't doubt my diagnosis.

Joke's on you, I'm a no-pill-left-behind kinda guy! *pops in 4 in a row that were accidentally forgotten*

I do often put my tongue between my teeth in an attempt to recduce damage to my teeth, but I still bite my tongue, which I think still makes the muscle tension worse. My current approach is to open my jaw as wide as possible and hold it for like 30 seconds to stretch the muscles. It seems to kinda help, but depending on where I am, it can be kinda awkward.

I'm using "did I take my meds" from F-Droid. It's not for everyone, but I love that it's privacy focused and FOSS. It can also track when you're getting low and need to reorder.

I set an alarm but I have a bad habit of turning it off and just going back to what I was doing.

I don’t know why he won’t give me XR. When I brought it up, he pushed Vyvanse instead. I’m not opposed to trying it, now that it’s generic but I asked my pharmacist and she said she wouldn’t because they can’t get that in stock either.

Doc did suggest I set an alarm in a different room next to the pills. It forces me to get up and turn it off. I do that when I work from home.

To add: You can look for a psychiatrist by yourself if you want to. A referral from your GP is only strictly necessary if you take part in a GP model - which means, at one point you signed a contract agreeing to only seeing specialists when referred to one. So basically, look online for Psychiatrists in your region and simply call them. BTW Psychotherapists cannot issue referrals, but they might recommend someone. Generally speaking though psychotherapists aren't needed to get medication in Germany, they offer psychotherapy.

(Noch zu ergänzen: Man kann sich auch einfach selbst einen Psychiater suchen. Eine Überweisung vom Hausarzt ist nur dann notwendig, wenn man am Hausarztmodell teilnimmt, d.h. wenn man irgendwann mal unterschrieben hat, Fachärzte nur mit Überweisung aufzusuchen. Also einfach mal online schauen, welche Psychiater es in Wohnortnähe gibt, und selbst dort anrufen. Psychotherapeuten stellen übrigens keine Überweisungen aus und könnten höchstens jemanden empfehlen. Im Allgemeinen braucht man in Deutschland keine Therapeuten, um an Medis zu kommen, bei denen kriegt man Psychotherapie.)

Source: Am Psychotherapist in Germany.