Often, found family for finding that assistance.
Another thing that we as men don't want to admit (generalized statement,) are that traumas we suffer can often come from a familial source, and that distrust can poison our attempts to reach out to others.
Worse, those traumas can give improper perceptions about how a family works, and give frustrations due to finding out that your previously assumed normal life was in reality quite damaging for viewpoints when confronting how all the easy lessons we were taught were dead, decayed, and buried by 1970, if not earlier, and we're working on tertiary information from unreliable sources that are grasping to the past to maintain control in their own lives.
The first postal is free, only the remaster currently costs money for the first game.
Edit: No idea what the logic is for a third party charging for the Dreamcast version is though... maybe they have some sort of agreement with RWS
Further edit: A link to Postal on Steam to verify price. https://store.steampowered.com/app/232770/POSTAL/