Yeah, I’m already helping on a local farm. But i don’t think I’ll find any leads for a job from the people there (i mostly do tutoring and software engineering)

I’m not sure what would be good other places to volunteer. A museum maybe?

I tend to be kinda superficial with people i don’t know though. I would love to be better at getting to know people and making friends.

Ublacklist works with searx? Good to know, I want to try this myself.

Your search results must be so clean and useful.

Yeah, I used it for a long while in the past. Now mostly on searxNG, but I still like the bangs and quick results from ddg. Kagi is also pretty good, but feels a bit too pricey in my country.

I have the opposite problem actually. I feel like I'm not thinking much at all (probably from a continuous shutdown) During these moments, constantly thinking and feeling seems like an improvement.

'Why don't you try being more happy?' <- actual advice given by family members. 🤦

Yeah it's not easy to figure out what exactly is wrong sometimes. I think my body either gives me no signals or mixes things up.

I think this is partly because during my childhood, I often felt uncomfortable (eating certain food, paying attention for hours in class, trying to make friends, etc...) but didn't have the option to actually recover or rest. When you are at school, you can't really retreat into your own chamber and take a nap or avoid bothersome noises, lights or social situations.

I learned that playing videogames or browsing was a very effective way for me to feel better (because it just drowned out all the senses and allowed full focus). But in the end, I feel like I've trained myself to ignore what my body says, and in the long run this just leads to more problems.

More recently, I have learned to listen a bit more to my own needs (sometimes as simple as feeling that I need to go to the toilet, and actually doing it). But it's still something that is not natural for me at the moment.

You're spot on. I don't even notice it myself. But during these kind of days, I always just sit at home and do nothing. I like walking actually, but for some reason my motivation for that drops as well and then I don't feel like going outside either. But it always helps, even if I don't feel like it.

I'd love to have a dog or cat at home, but I don't think I have the financial means at the moment. And I don't want to get one if I don't think I'll be able to take care of it properly.

Sometimes it's pretty clear, but other times it feels like I had a great week and then suddenly I don't feel like doing anything anymore.

Never heard of 'girlrot' before, learned something new :) It's definitely a good description of what i'll end up doing most of these times.

It mentions there is no space for growing grains, so yeah no 4 in this picture

Yeah, I'm getting older now and still feel I never really had a genuine connection with somebody else. How to work on this?

Man, I wish there were more people around me who cared about discussing Linux and open source software. Only one person I know actually understands it, but he’s still running windows for games and programming.

Grift + wealth works even better.