OmegaLemmy

I am a developer and I have worked as an intern in the past, which wasn't a big deal, but now I want to find new opportunities and it's daunting, making programs to show off on GitHub is much easier than to, like, be overwhelmed by the calls, the resumes, the interviews, I almost feel like I am going to get blacklisted from a company if I do bad and that KILLS my motivation if I had any

It's difficult to even start so I've just been procrastinating by telling myself I'll make a resume after I'm done with a project, and I'm never done with a project, and if I do have a resume, I'm too scared, lazy, or can't find a place to send it too

Maybe I should try finding a really lazy method, or maybe I should use a fake name to see how it goes, but I don't feel much confident even then, is there any way to gamify this damned process? What a mess.

I had been through 15 matches or do before my rank was unlocked, and it happened to be 2.5k, I was up against higher opponents though and on leetify I was matching 5k-10k

Is this ordinary? Or do people get higher rankings? Am I just bad?

For me, yes, an example I could use is transforming a generic language using an alphabet, formed using Turkish as the base, and evolving it based on Chinese influences and attempting to adopt logographic styles

This made me theorise on how Chinese works and the absolute role of context, where I could apply it and what not

But what about you?

Bonus points, for how long? Extra points, how was it? Additional points, why there and what did you do?

Should be good at conversations and creative, it'll be for worldbuilding

Best if uncensored as I prefer that over it kicking in when I least want it

I'm fine with those roleplaying models as long as they can actually give me ideas and talk to be logically