I was in this same boat for a long, long time. The only thing that saved me was entirely replacing my social circle with other trans folks. It's become a space where I truly know they perceived me as a woman.
If you want suggestions, gay bars or [local area] discord server. Once you meet a couple trans folks, it spiderwebs from there, most of us know a ton of other trans folks.
If you don't want suggestions, you have my sympathy and love. You will find a better life, one that you find worth living.
I was in this same boat for a long, long time. The only thing that saved me was entirely replacing my social circle with other trans folks. It's become a space where I truly know they perceived me as a woman. If you want suggestions, gay bars or [local area] discord server. Once you meet a couple trans folks, it spiderwebs from there, most of us know a ton of other trans folks. If you don't want suggestions, you have my sympathy and love. You will find a better life, one that you find worth living.