Enjoy the ride. You can't really do much anything else useful. Worrying doesn't help anyone.
But if I remember correctly, for my first kid I faked a lot of the positive emotions to avoid stress for the mother... felt probably pretty similar to you. All rational, and seeing a lot of my future time and energy spent not for me and my enjoyment, but someone elses.
But the moment i first saw this tiny human - I cried and weeped and laughed and I can't imagine a feeling that can top this (we had a second 3 years later, and thats the only thing that compares to this moment). Seeing something so fragile, delicate and beautiful, made by you and your loved one... no fake emotions were needed by this time. Best day, best moment of my life, no doubt about that!
Sure, they're 7 and 4 now and theres a lot of energy that both of us as parents invested... but at least for us its the best spent energy, time and money we could ever imagine (ok, we both havent tried heroin yet ;-))...
Enjoy the ride. You can't really do much anything else useful. Worrying doesn't help anyone. But if I remember correctly, for my first kid I faked a lot of the positive emotions to avoid stress for the mother... felt probably pretty similar to you. All rational, and seeing a lot of my future time and energy spent not for me and my enjoyment, but someone elses.
But the moment i first saw this tiny human - I cried and weeped and laughed and I can't imagine a feeling that can top this (we had a second 3 years later, and thats the only thing that compares to this moment). Seeing something so fragile, delicate and beautiful, made by you and your loved one... no fake emotions were needed by this time. Best day, best moment of my life, no doubt about that!
Sure, they're 7 and 4 now and theres a lot of energy that both of us as parents invested... but at least for us its the best spent energy, time and money we could ever imagine (ok, we both havent tried heroin yet ;-))...