Similar.
Me: dad is tortured and murdered by capitalism in a surgical rehab facility
Mom and me: suffer
Therapists: talking in circles going nowhere for a long time until I quit because it’s not helping and the drugs prescribed make it worse
Me: 🙃
My thoughts: Obsessively thinks about Green Mario
This legit came up in convo last night between two other friends and myself. Ones a very close friend and the other is her friend who I’ve been friendly with for years but don’t really know very well although I know we’re all aligned against capitalism to varying extents (as usual I’m always the most extreme, but traumatize someone enough and that’s what they become).
Anyway st Luigi came up in conversation. They’re talking about how it’s understandable and the guy is not a sympathetic victim but murdering for ideology is wrong.
I lose my shit. Oh murdering for ideology is wrong but social murder for profit is acceptable?! Oh we should try to reform this system? Oh that’s where I should direct my anger to, looking into organizations that are “working on it?” Omfg liberals. Even the progressive ones. Even the ones I love dearly. They just don’t get it. if peaceful reform was possible we would of done it already (and no, shut the fuck up about obamacare, it’s garbage and just a handout to insurance companies). You can’t take down a masters house with his tools! The capitalist captured government system we have does not allow for meaningful reform. make peaceful reform impossible and violent revolution is inevitable. It’s easier to imagine the end of the world than the end of capitalism, well here we are. Luigi fired the first shot on our side, it’s time for more people to step up.
Anyway. The guy who owns the facility my dad was tortured and killed by? He owns a whole bunch more. Even better? He’s been accused of being a fucking slaver! apparently in one of his care homes he has Filipino indentured servants. And he’s a Zionist, cherry on top of the shit sundae of people who deserve to be six feet in the ground just like my dad who didn’t deserve what he went through.
My moms still alive and I am responsible to care for her as she ages. But once she’s off this planet (and she’s in good health so it will be a while, but I’ve been feeling this way for the last 13 years, wanting revenge, I have a lot of flaws but a lack of patience isn’t one of them) if that guy still exists I’ll add to the list of CEOs being deposed.
Reform doesn’t work. Violence does.
My friends of course are horrified. Whatever. I have very left to live for at this point.