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I hope so, it's been giving me a run-around with all the limitations and then me also fucking up and not collecting measurements in mm but in cm...

Overcome by yet another overwhelming wave of lethargy and sleep and needed to doze off for an hour there. This isn't good it's definitely a slide into the ol depresso funtimes. I can see myself trying to block out the huge cloud of sad/bad by just sleeping instead of doing anything ...

I am going to hit the pavement tomorrow, Saturday and maybe even Sunday if the weather's right, to get the west side data all collected, especially as now I really can only get data between about 10 and 2. Which is good in a way because fuck traffic and fuck getting overheated/dehydrated again during long days. But it means I might have to redo some my previous data... sigh... anyway I just need to get my head down, bum up, and go for it

He really is such a strikingly handsome kitteh

Everything is bro-keeeen

And we're sadly out of luuuuck 🎵

(this is meant to be to the tune of that Lego movie song right)

It's very true, I do often need social motivation/a community to spur myself on, all the successful times in my life have been when I've had external motivators like that. I have often beat myself up about it because it feels like feeding my ego, and also it feels like a double edged sword - disappointment or discord with that external motivating person, especially a perceived sense of rejection, can have a dramatic negative effect (at least for me). But that shouldn't stop me from reaching out while being realistic with expectations. I have been blessed to have one of the most lenient and supportive supervisors I could get...

Thank you 😭 I need every bit of an ego boost right now to stave off a massive wave of insecurity and shitfulness looming on the horizon

Got a bit of a gentle but well-deserved telling off from my supervisor about needing to finish collecting data by the end of the month. Stupid fucking ADHD brain really does need a threat to kick start itself. I hate it but it is what it is. Let's get this shit done.

A moment of appreciation for authentic, good quality Japanese rice (not the supermarket stuff). It's spenny but worth every cent getting the good shit from Hinoki... Can eat it just plain with a bit of shichimi and salt. Glistening, toothsome, and somehow holding its own flavour.

Been thinking a lot about friends and family there. It's looking very serious and worse than the usual floods and ex cyclones/tropical lows they get there. They haven't had a real cyclone hit them bang on since what, 1974? They're not as used to this as FNQ or the Pacific islands but I hope there won't be any deaths at least.

I heard they had to close 3 lanes, must've been really awful...

Wow, Westgate extra fucked today by the looks of it.

Managed to do a big clean in just 2 hours - wiping everything including the windowsills, scrubbing the bathtub, sinks and stove, moving empty heavy pots temporarily out of common area, massive vacuum and mop... As usual, nothing like last minute panic to finally get shit done that really didn't need to take that long after all...

Good thing is the REA actually seemed decent enough and not too anal about details, most importantly it seems like the short lease period was only because it was a lease break situation and not because they want to sell - so I can be confident of rolling onto a monthly situation til the end of my studies. No need to rush around looking for a friend to crash with for the last 1-2 months, but I can also bugger off afterwards fairly easily afterwards.

Now to just get to the end of this frigging degree...