lilypad

mainly just dirty curse phrases

Satan i hælvette ka slags fetteforbanna mannskitt e dette?

Basically just means "what the fuck is this?" but with more swearing.

Its not windows or NASM but this site has some 64 bit linux examples using gnu assembler (the gnu userland default assembler). You could probably find some examples for windows with nasm if you look around.

::: spoiler example code from the site

# ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
# Writes "Hello, World" to the console using only system calls. Runs on 64-bit Linux only.
# To assemble and run:
#
#     gcc -c hello.s && ld hello.o && ./a.out
#
# or
#
#     gcc -nostdlib hello.s && ./a.out
# ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

        .global _start

        .text
_start:
        # write(1, message, 13)
        mov     $1, %rax                # system call 1 is write
        mov     $1, %rdi                # file handle 1 is stdout
        mov     $message, %rsi          # address of string to output
        mov     $13, %rdx               # number of bytes
        syscall                         # invoke operating system to do the write

        # exit(0)
        mov     $60, %rax               # system call 60 is exit
        xor     %rdi, %rdi              # we want return code 0
        syscall                         # invoke operating system to exit
message:
        .ascii  "Hello, world\n"

Tbh in the US things seem to be moving towards the point where it is that bad. Maybe thats just my shit take tho. But people can be charged for helping people transition, for helping people get abortions, etc.

But like, even in "good" countries, someones personal situation can create very real dangers. If someone is an immigrant, for example, then importing a gray market drug for personal use can be fraught, even if the drug itself isnt strictly illegal (as estrogen often isnt). Some places limit the amount you can import before you need to register as a farmacy. One 10ml vial of 40mg/ml estradiol is a lot of dosages, and it may fall above that line.

sad

spoiler Very very sad

Very very lonely

spoiler Want to talk so desperately

But cannot be vulnerable

spoiler People hurting hurts me

Im surrounded by hurt people

spoiler Im also a hurt person

I want to be taken care of

spoiler I want to take care of those im close to

I just want to be held

spoiler And told everything is ok.

Even if its just for a night, or even just a few minutes, I want to know that its ok.

spoiler I want to feel loved

I am loved

spoiler I just cant feel it.

I can never feel it.

spoiler I can love.

But no matter how much someone loves me, i can never feel it.

spoiler Im alienated from my self and my feelings of love.

Do i even love anymore?

spoiler or do i just chase ghosts?

I havent had friends last more than a year, maybe two.

spoiler Now im coming up on the time to leave again.

Everyone always leaves me

spoiler So i try to leave first.

I got close to them.

spoiler It was a mistake.

because now i dont want to leave.

spoiler but i have to.

its not safe to be close to people

spoiler its safest alone

but alone is lonely

spoiler i just cant find people who want to hear about my experience of life.

except i can

spoiler i just dont want to be close to them once they care about me

because it isnt safe anymore

spoiler i know its not real,

but everyone leaves

spoiler so i have to leave first.

That way i dont get hurt.

Goodnight

Half the convos in the trans mega come to mind. From supporting and listening to each other, to talking about fun queer games, to heavy flirting, and of course accelerating each others gender ^^

::: spoiler spoiler

That's not a bad motivation, that's the most normal motivation in the world

I need to internalize this. Its the same thinking that had me not transitioning for so long...

My main thing with BAs is that you need to go back every 5-15 years, and idk, im just so hesitant – so scared – to do that... I have time to think tho, its not like i can afford it on my zero dollars a month salary lol ;.;

good nights of sleep always make my days better, im glad you finally got one ^^

::: spoiler spoiler I dont even want d cups or giant breasts, id ideally have a b-c cup size. But even just if they filled out a little bit it would be really nice. Idk, im just feeling down on myself rn ig...

::: spoiler spoiler Yeah it should be. I have some but was really iffy on taking it regularly and stopped after maybe a month or two. Maybe i should start with it again?