::: spoiler spoiler Yeah, it was better when i was in uni and had a clear path towards work and stability. Now ive been unemployed and burning savings a year and a half. Its not sustainable but i have no skills, no prospects, everything has shifted and im still trying to get my feet under myself.
lilypad
joined 2 years ago
::: spoiler smoking
When i quit the first time it was cause i got so depressed that i didnt leave my room for 2 weeks. Was good for several years, then i fell off. Now im quitting again and it suuuccckkkssssss
From one dumb anxious bitch to another, you got this 
Im the inverse! I want to be soft squishy and cute, and then ill have a really butch day out of nowhere 
Scheduled intake with a psych to get eval for adhd and maybe autism and hopefully get medication or help or something.
cw doomer
Im not made for this world. The way it moves, its colors shapes and sounds... they arent made for me, nor i them. Theres no resources for me. I cant get a job, and im just waiting it out at this point, waiting until the resources i do have are dried up and its all over. I just want out of this world.
smoking
I havent had any cigs today! But im so close to going and buying a pack. The cravings are unreal. Ive had 2 in the past 3 days, before that i was smoking ¼-½ a pack a day. Idk if i need to taper more but fuck me these cravings are going harrrdddddd
This is the gayest thing ive heard in a minute 
vi vet kæm du e 
(I dont actually im not in your org)
::: spoiler kink
I love being a nibbletoy! Maybe one day i can graduate to chewtoy 
First laser session went well. It... Doesnt hurt? Everyone says it hurts but its kinda fine? Im gonna ask them to bump up the power next session
Thesis: i want a hug
Antithesis: the next person who touches me will get a fork in their eye
Synthesis: ???
Shes got it chat!