My man.
I've been there too. I saw the singularity and touched god... and I'm a goddamn atheist. Coming back from that experience changed me. The memories were fleeting. I couldn't remember the specifics after I returned to baseline. All the knowledge that I was given dissipated... but the overwhelming sense of calm persisted.
If I'm gonna die, it'd be a good way to go out.
K and nitrous... that's mothers love.