miz_nocturnal

Not a personal website, but I’m currently working on my portfolio site for when it’s time to find a job. I’m in school for software development. I’ve made websites using Wordpress templates and very basic html/css long before but now I’m actually trying to code mine from scratch with html/css/js now that I’ve learned enough in school. It is really fun, especially when you find cool tricks and they work!

This reminds me of the time I saw some folks fill up about 30 ish helium balloons in a store then walk out to their small car. I couldn’t help but laugh as they went from smiling to panicking when they realized they had no way to fit them inside. It was hilarious. I still wonder what they ended up doing to get the balloons home lol.

Just got the news last week that my dad, who was diagnosed with Pancreatic cancer in October, might have 5-7 months left. Plus my mom is slowly dying from COPD. I’m trying to stay positive and spend what might be the last Christmas we get with them. But to say I’m not feeling the happy new year vibes is an understatement. Only death and more depression coming in 2024.

A horror movie called It’s Alive. I was 5 years old. My mom would rent horror movies without checking the ratings and I’d watch them. Even after this I always loved horror and never had nightmares or anything. But, I rewatched It’s Alive a few years ago and it is definitely not for kids… But honestly the craziest thing my mom rented was The Toxic Avenger, when I was maybe 10. She never saw it herself it so still has no idea what she allowed me to watch at a young age!

Thank you!

Almost at one month… but man, did I pick a time to stop drinking…. my grandma passed away Wednesday, and then yesterday my dad was hospitalized and diagnosed with pancreatic cancer.

As much as my brain tells me a drink might help how I’m feeling, I know it won’t and I will feel worse for it. IWNDWYT.

Great idea! I think by the time the party comes I’ll have informed my close friends. I already asked one to make some non alcoholic Jell-O shots for me lol. Also, I’m being a pirate this year and I bought a cool pirate mug to drink from and I’m gonna pour NA beers or coke and lime like you said and carry it around all night. I’m hoping that as long as I have something in my hand, people won’t ask.

Thank you! I think the weird part for me is that I’m so emotional over telling people. I told my neighbor I’m not drinking and said I’d still like to come over to visit. She didn’t reply for a while and I got really upset, because it almost feels like I’m going through a breakup. It’s isolating. But then she replied and said no worries, she’s gonna make us hot chocolate instead! So yeah, you’re right that my friends will likely be supportive. It’s just this time I’m not lying to myself and telling people feels like a really big deal because I really mean it.

I really hope I pick up some new hobbies and activities, and get my health back on track too.

I found out the difference between just normal dislike and phobias a few years ago. I dislike insects and they make me jumpy but I wasn’t terrified of any of them, even spiders. Until I had an encounter with giant carpenter ants, both the normal ones and the ones with wings.

I was living in my RV and apparently it was their nesting season, and I come from a different province and normally never see large ants like these. I kept finding them everywhere in my trailer, these giant ants, like I’d open a drawer and pull out a dish cloth and one would be underneath it. I was crying hysterically and shaking and I would rather have died than come across another one. It went on for about 3 days, I barely slept because the fuckers were crawling all over the ceiling and walls at night.

I went and picked up ant killer spray and went scorched earth on them. Within a day there were dozens of dead ones inside the trailer and probably thousands outside in the gravel. It was crazy. Neighbouring campers had these ants too, I guess it was normal nesting season there and no one worried about it much. They started to comment that the ants were disappearing earlier. I didn’t tell them it was me lol. But yeah, I have a phobia I wasn’t expecting and I lose my shit when I see them to this day.

I’m very sure I’ll be able to contribute to this conversation at the end of the semester. I have an Organizational Behavior class and the teacher is a prick, narcissist and a bully. Treating us adults like we are misbehaving children and gaslighting us every class.

It’s interesting how it affects people differently. When I lost my sense of smell with COVID, bad smells were the last to return. I could smell everything else but couldn’t smell bathroom smells, eggs, skunk, or weed (debatable if the last one is bad or not, but either way it was gone). It was nice, I was hoping to only smell nice things forever, but it came back.

Cold Pursuit

I saw it in theatres and I remember people weren’t laughing and some were walking out because they were bored. I can guarantee that all of them saw Liam Neeson was the lead and were expecting another action packed Taken type movie. What we got instead was a movie reminiscent of Fargo or The Big Lebowski. It’s absolutely hilarious, I’ve watched it many times and I’ve shown friends this one and they’ve all loved it. Highly recommend!