nathanfieldertulpa
joined 2 years ago
trying to pass as a cis woman online by putting she/her/hers in my bio instead of just she/her
Now, the dysphoria more clearly is disassociation
god, it took me so long to realize this. in my case i think the neglect i went through growing up caused me to dissociate from anything that was uncomfortable, which is why it's so hard for me to actually feel my dysphoria and why i didnt know in the same way that it feels like other trans people knew. so there's definitely a correlation for me
i didnt really start hating it until i started going by my chosen name. which checks out compared to how ive felt about a ton of other gender things. like i didnt rly realize how much i hated my body hair until it was gone, or my voice until i realized that id subconsciously changed it to be more feminine. basically i just masked so hard that i forgot i was masking. i also have cptsd so that probably contributed to it
do yall think that biden will get trump confused with reagan when he makes a comment about this
yeah, i had dreams about people seeing my painted toenails too
i cracked a friend's egg recently (they've been listening to chappell roan a lot and i told them that they could be a lesbian if they wanted to be one) and it left me buzzing so i feel this lol
what magi said tbh. a lot of us just chase the gender envy/euphoria
Also I never had any dysphoric thoughts before 26-27y of age.
my egg didnt crack until i was 25 and if you asked pre-transition me if i experienced dysphoria i wouldve told you no. turns out that i was just so dissociated/used to it/repressed that i couldnt recognize it. and as ashinadash said, you don’t need it to be trans.
haha you're quite the night owl
counterpoint: im an idiot and i dont wanna have to restart halfway into the story bc i made a doodoo character