peppersky

saw that i got a call from a friend on discord whom i was supposed to play elden ring nightreign with today while i was on the go and wrote to him that i'd be there in fifteen minutes, only to see when i got home that he is already playing with two other friends, one of whom clearly said he couldn't play today and the other one i don't know. this friend knows that i feel lonely and that i dont have anything to do today. fuck my life

where do i find other better friends also i might have a slight very boring case of borderline personality disorder and want to die

thinking about explaining my psychological problems to chatgpt like the loser i am i actually go to actual real life human being to human being therapy but it doesnt help

i bit my hand again until it bled, i dont want to live this life anymore, yesterday i felt good and had fun and hope why do i feel like this again do i have bipolar disorder, why do i have to live in these soulless hopeless godawful times, i could deal with all the other shit, i cannot deal with the soulless soulsucking void that is modern capitalism, im never going to live in a community, ill never have a friendgroup, a house to live in, a girlfriend or love, once my parents are dead ill have no one to rely on and my parents are poor and i should be ashamed to rely on themm

carl marx would not say this

Post good, post nice, post about the things that make you happy, create something that makes you happy and gives you hope and share it with the world.

Everyone's very tired