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So about 2 years ago, I moved away. Broken spirit broken person, over 3000 miles. However, yesterday I landed for my first visit back here. And I just feel weird. Like I'm not supposed to be here or something, it's very ominous. I constantly feel anxious.

The weirdest thing was seeing how my parents have started to age. And the woods where I used to hang out are all housing developments now. I'm currently sleeping on a mattress in my old room, aka the office now, surrounded by random shelving and printers and stuff. it's really a weird feeling in here too.

I don't know what I expected but I definitely don't feel like I'm "home". It's like some weird alternate dimension version of home. There's still some people I'm yet to see and I wonder how that's gonna go. So far everything already feels uncomfortably different. Alongside that, the rose tint has also come off and I have a lot of bad memories going through my head too instead of any sort of nostalgia. Almost like the different person I was back then is still lurking here somewhere watching me.

Anyone familiar with such a feeling, after being away for so long?

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[–] Blaze@discuss.tchncs.de 20 points 10 months ago (1 children)

Hello,

I switched countries a few years back, but I still visit every few months to see my family and friends there. I definitely get what you mean, sometimes it's not even that the place has changed that much, but it's more that you have changed. I don't think there is really any way to deal with this feeling.

Have a good day.

[–] FeelThePower@lemmy.dbzer0.com 11 points 10 months ago

Definitely this too. It kind of feels like the grave of a person who once was here.