FeelThePower

For as long as I can remember (even dating back to childhood) ive never had a consistent ability to maintain a sleep time. This has resulted in me always being tired. I remember in elementary school over the summer I'd fall asleep at 4am and wake up at 12pm. In high school I would sleep at 4am, wake up at 8:30 for school, then sleep the second half at 4pm when i got home. Earlier this year I was sleeping at 3 in the afternoon until 11pm at night, then I would stay up all night and go to work. Today I fell asleep at 7pm or so and woke up at 2am, just been watching a show and listening to music since then while waiting to get ready for work. Often times if I try and maintain a specific time of sleeping I will roll around for hours awake, or alternatively I will only sleep for a few hours and then fall back asleep later. The longest ive been able to manage a consistent sleep time was in 11th grade, for about 6 months I slept at 11pm but gradually my body started wanting to push later and later. I tend to only get a full 8 hours of sleep one or two nights per week as well, sometimes I'll drink alcohol to help sleep longer but only on a friday or saturday.

i was getting hex withdrawal. I didn't even use Lemmy that much while you were unfederated from the URL thing and would read from your actual webpage. most other instances feel unbearable these last few months.

for the last few days I was having extremely weird chest movements where my heart would seemingly not beat, then beat really hard and make me cough. combine this with getting sick to the point of delirium and hallucinating and I knew I had to go to the hospital. got diagnosed with heart palpitations which isn't so bad apparently, my heart just doesn't beat normally. but I'm really bummed I was told I have covid as welll. my roomates were gonna surprise me and take me somewhere that it snows on the 25th because I have never seen snow except for in the distance on the mountains after moving here. but now we all got covid and are bedridden :/

Decided to put my phone on do not disturb and go see some nature on this Friday morning.

Having dropped New Vegas in the past due to lost interest, I decided to try this game out finally since a friend of mine was having a fallout 3 playthrough himself. It was it 8 bucks, so I figured why not. I have to say, I put way more hours into this game than both other Bethesda games I've played through (Skyrim and Oblivion) before even finishing the main quest line. The combat was excellent in my opinion, and I (seem to be in the minority of people who) really liked the story. The choices it forces you to make sometimes really had me feeling emotional at times. I also played it with some minor mods installed, just some custom outfits and real world guns for immersion. Nothing to break the story or anything, though there are a few DLC sized mods I'm eyeing up to play in the future. Overall I seriously enjoyed this game, I've noticed online it seems to be regarded as one of the least popular mainline games but I think it's become my favourite Bethesda game I've tried so far honestly. Seriously recommend anyone who hasn't played this yet to at least give it a try. It really pulled me in.

Edit: Since I'm done with F4, got New Vegas running with some nice mods to add gritty aesthetics and real world weapons. Giving it another try 6 years after I initially tried it and so far I'm way more into it!

Edit 2: more specific context

I'm looking for either unbiased nonfiction, or translated stories directly from the time and place. I figured you all here would be a good source to ask :p

Worth noting: the warning originally had a direct mention that the attack was from a surveilling government, but they removed that part after being asked.

I got a quote at the dentist that my mouth would cost like 20k to fix (it's really bad, every generation of my family before me has no teeth). I really just want to not look like the way I do when I smile, as I'm missing a front tooth. I also have a recurring infection that I keep delaying at the ER because Medicaid covers the antibiotics but I can't actually afford the dentist. I've tried looking for dental schools but in my area there isn't a program that offers the free thing if you're a test dummy for a student. I'm not sure what to do and my worry is that if the infection gets bad enough I'll just have to accept early death due to lack of care. In the USA if it's not obvious enough already.

Hopefully this is the right kind of question for this community, my apologies if not.

I'm looking for some sort of device that will let me load my own media from a USB / SD card, and play it to my TV. Does such a device exist? Some sort of remote controlled box that can just load mp4 / mkv files from locally hosted storage? I have been using my PC over HDMI but it can get annoying having an awkward room layout because my computer always has to be next to the TV to do this.

Feeling a bit down tonight. How do you guys like to lighten up?

So about 2 years ago, I moved away. Broken spirit broken person, over 3000 miles. However, yesterday I landed for my first visit back here. And I just feel weird. Like I'm not supposed to be here or something, it's very ominous. I constantly feel anxious.

The weirdest thing was seeing how my parents have started to age. And the woods where I used to hang out are all housing developments now. I'm currently sleeping on a mattress in my old room, aka the office now, surrounded by random shelving and printers and stuff. it's really a weird feeling in here too.

I don't know what I expected but I definitely don't feel like I'm "home". It's like some weird alternate dimension version of home. There's still some people I'm yet to see and I wonder how that's gonna go. So far everything already feels uncomfortably different. Alongside that, the rose tint has also come off and I have a lot of bad memories going through my head too instead of any sort of nostalgia. Almost like the different person I was back then is still lurking here somewhere watching me.

Anyone familiar with such a feeling, after being away for so long?