This was a couple weeks ago. He said he wanted to try me on stimulant medication, but I needed to go get clearance from my primary care doctor because I've also been dealing with some tachycardia. She put me on a beta blocker, although hopefully with better time-management and more energy I'll exercise enough to eventually come off the beta blocker. I had a follow-up this week and asked the psychiatrist if he thinks I have ADHD. He was a little reluctant to say I definitely have it, that it's more of a clinical diagnosis and I could go do some tests with a computer or see a neuropsychiatrist for a more definitive diagnosis, but also didn't seem to think I really needed to do that. Still need either a formal letter from my primary care doctor or possibly the visit notes would suffice if she mentioned taking stimulants so he can prescribe them, but I'm really hoping they'll help.
Mine cut me off 25 minutes into a 60 minute session and said "So you definitely have ADHD and these are going to be the next steps."
I finished describing the behaviors I wanted help with to my first therapist and they said "ok, so you're here about your adhd." I had no idea I was adhd, I just thought I was a bad adult. Several second opinions and tests later...I'm definitely adhd.
What's sad about that is this line of thinking never went away for me. I have doubts it will.
I'm pretty sure most of us start by thinking were just bad adults... Or bad at being people... Or lazy at least.
It takes a while to process that you're actually not lazy or a bad human at all. You're just wired differently. Knowing that and getting help with it isn't a bad thing.
I’ve spent probably 30 years feeling like that