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My bullying trauma is making me believe my friends hate me (lemmygrad.ml)

submitted 6 months ago by KrupskayaPraxis@lemmygrad.ml to c/comradeship@lemmygrad.ml

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I became friends with a couple of people and I meet with them often. They like me as well but my brain tries to convince me they hate me. I was severly bullied, ostracized and neglected by my peers at school from elementary school to college and it caused me to have a hard time trusting anyone and gave me terrible self esteem. But I didn't know that it would be this bad. It sucks having the time of your life and returning home just trying to shut off your brain because you don't want to deal with the intrusive thoughts. But it doesn't work, the next day the thoughts come back and make me feel terrible. I almost don't want to announce that I'm coming for our next meeting because somehow I feel like a burden, even though I was literally personally invited by one of my friends.

Does anybody else deal with this? How do you deal with it?

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[–] multitotal@lemmygrad.ml 6 points 6 months ago

I never considered the possibility that they don't actually hate me, so I stop hanging out with them. I got pretty good at burning bridges...