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Finished with university until September now, and have most of my grades for this year back (still waiting on one module). Having mixed feelings about the grades, because I know objectively that they're excellent, yet I still feel like I could have done better. I still got better grades than everyone else. I will acknowledge the two may be connected: when you constantly feel like you could be doing better, you push yourself harder. Even so, I did learn a ridiculous amount this year, and produced some work I'm really proud of.

The end outcome of this is, of course, that I'm exhausted, yet simultaneously having trouble slowing down. Having been pushing at full speed ahead for many months, I'm now feeling weirded out by not having any assignments to do or deadlines to meet. If I had to summarise what my brain is doing right now, it would be:

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There is also tangible relief to be away from... that guy. I can't remember if I posted about it at the time but basically he got caught lying about his part of the group project, namely that he had finished it when he had not even started it. So with 24 hours before the deadline, we essentially kicked him off the team and I did his section of the project. A week's worth of work packed into a single evening. Because he's using his neurodiversity as an excuse for not doing anything for half the year, they're probably going to be reluctant to kick him out... but that's a problem for next September. For now, I'm just going to enjoy not having to deal with the useless, arrogant prick for a few months.