Opening up a space for everyone to talk about how they're doing! Got some cool stuff going on? Feeling kinda down? Let's talk about it!
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Started "working" with Outlier, basically training AI responses. Minimum wage, boring ass work, but i put in 70 hours this past week (most of it time thievery). Behind on rent and bills, but if I can push myself for 2 more weeks of this I can maybe catch up! Had a few "serious" job interviews this week, so we'll see where they go. The one I'm looking forward to most is a pet care company, but no response after a phone call like 10 days ago. Partner just got a job today so that's cool!
Beyond that...I dunno. Just feeling kinda blah and not very great. Both tummy and brain troubles today.
How have you been?
I'm glad the AI thing is working out for you, and that you've got leads on jobs! Is your partner excited about their new job?
I'm having a hard time with my kid and my extended family, separate problems.
My family is pressuring me to use my medical marijuana card to buy them gummies etc, but I don't want to because I don't want to risk getting caught and then losing my ability to get my Adderall prescription, and also, they all qualify for their own medical cards anyway. Why it's a better solution for me to endanger my ability to get the medicine that's keeping me sane than for them to do some paperwork, idfk.
My kid just really seems to be going through a time of particularly disliking me, which I know is just a teenager thing, but it is hard. We were having a silly conversation last week about what kind of plants we would be, and I said I would be moss because I just want to take care of things and be a soft blanket that keeps the ground moist so other things can sprout. He said I'm a cactus, because I don't need much care, I'm prickly, but I'm pretty to look at. ๐ญ It's been a week, and I'm still not over it, especially since he keeps getting pissy with me about stuff, and I'm trying so hard to just be chill and understanding while he's snapping at me, and all I can think is, "I'm a cactus. I'm a fucking cactus."
๐ probably shouldn't have typed this up, because now I'm crying, which is no way to start the day! ๐คฆ
Anyway, if I think I'm moss but everyone sees me as a cactus, it would explain a lot about my dealings with other people and why I have such a hard time with friends etc. The possibility has really done my head in.
I'll get over it eventually.
I feel like I can really understand the Cactus thing. Here's to hoping yall two figure things out and become closer. With the family, well, stand your ground.
Hope youre feeling better now