Small update to my previous post about coming out(?) to my mom.
I went over to my sister's apartment earlier and gave her the low down. Her first course of business was to hug me and tell me she loves me, which was good. She took it a LOT better than my mom, and that made me feel much more comfortable. I found myself saying and discussing things ("makeup", "transitioning", "girl"! Egads, the scandal!) that I couldn't force myself to mention when talking with my mother. She was super supportive and listened to everything and asked good questions and made me feel validated, whereas with my mom I felt myself scrambling to do damage control and keep things tentative and hypothetical. When I was able to share how I was feeling in an open and welcoming environment I felt so much better and more confident than before. Shocker, right?
The biggest part was, towards the end, when I got brave enough to say that I might end up being her sister. She just broke down crying, and told me that she'd always wanted to have a sister. Hearing her say that gave me this indescribable feeling inside, and I think it was a good one. I know that however this ends up resolving that I've got her in my corner. She's coming over to have dinner with me and my mom tomorrow, and hopefully she can reassure my mom that everything is going to be okay. One day at a time, I suppose.
Thanks again to everyone who gave counsel and encouragement with my last post! I'm feeling a lot better about this and hope to share more good news in the future, although I'll try to keep from clogging the site up with my ramblings. On that note, does anyone have suggestions for communities more expressly dedicated to talking about stuff like this?