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The original was posted on /r/guildwars2 by /u/Amazing_Size_4305 on 2024-11-06 17:16:34+00:00.
A year ago I fell ill due to stress and I found out some bad news about my brain. While being in the hospital I found out my soon to be wife left me for another man. I don't blame her, I was sick and she was scared. We used to play this game a lot but now there is a constant connection between her and this game. I love GW2 and want to play it again now after a year but after my breakdown and illness I find it hard to talk to people, or even log in. I am still mourning my loss and I just wanna log in and play for a bit. Every time I just find myself in LA alone with tears down my cheeks, I wait there for about 10 mins, I look at the game and log off, I can't seem to get myself to do anything although I really want to. I want to do raids, and fractals and strikes again. I hype myself up before logging in and once I see myself in LA alone, everything turns grey. Like a lost memory.
I am here because I forgot how to MMO. I am a solo player now surrounded by awesome people but I am afraid to talk to them. I want to find a guild that can accept me. I am no trouble maker but sometimes...I might miss some events because I am not feeling well despite signing up for them. I really want to play but I would like people from the guild to understand that it's really hard for me and I am doing my best.