I feel like I have lost my identity after 1year of job-searching and subsequently work. I don't understand how things came to this point, I feel like all of my personality has crushed by the 9-5. Does everyone feel this hollow or am I that unable to exist
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I think it counts the countries with NATO bases as occupied which I think is fair, there is no way those countries can do whatever they want with yankee boots on their soil
I have to expunge the last bits of liberalism from myself. Shit like still eating meat once in a while, not wearing a mask when out with friends and ordering delivery when too tired to cook like a fucking treatlord. This site has unironically helped me in a ton of ways and I thank every one of you for this
Work has broken my mind to the extent that I regressed to wanting to buy shiny Yu-Gi-Oh cards even if I know its a bad idea. My job isn't even that hard but it's still exhausting to have to take the 1h commute, mask and socialize, stress over my responsibilities and fake working even if my energy reserves are done for the day.
I don't understand if I am just naturally lazy or if the autism+ADHD combo is making this harder than it is for NTs.
If I didn't have my gf I don't know if I would be able to stand this situation. I barely manage to now, only by taking drugs and eating emotionally (I have reached my max weight so far).
At least I do some fun stuff from time to time like playing Kingdom Hearts for the first time (it was one of my childhood hyperfixations), watching quality media such as Twin Peaks with my gf and playing with the yugioh cube I assembled with the few friends I still have.
Void Stranger but I am not sure if the essaybros have found it
I can picture a type of person that would enjoy Elden Ring for its artistic value but suck at games due to reasons outside their control (bad reaction times, poor concentration, sensory processing difficulties etc) or even due to not having enough time to "git gud". Why shouldn't they have their easy mode? Other mediums aren't that inaccessible to people
It's absolutely ableist. My ADHD makes me worse at games for sure (and also way less able to tolerate punishing design such as the Dark Souls corpse runs), also some things like tapping rapidly I just can't do at all. The only answer gamer bros have for me is "git gud" or its even worse evolution "skill issue".
It really triggers the RSD sometimes but what can you do, I just play easier slop now (especially since work has crushed my soul) and have more fun. I would actually love a website that lists the bullshit in each game like infrequent checkpoints, difficulty spikes, lack of quest markers etc so I can know to avoid them.
- CrossCode (banger jazz fusion+prog OST, zelda-like dungeons, decent story about self-acceptance, great combat and bosses)
- Katamari Damacy (cozy, banger OST, wacky gameplay)
- ZeroRanger (GOATed OST, great aesthetic and story-gameplay integration)
- OFF (disturbing atmosphere and a story that's up to interpretation, artistically brilliant imo)
- Xanadu Next (japanese isometric dungeon crawler similar to Diablo but without the random loot and with a different build system, the music and atmosphere is pretty good, I also thought the story was pretty decent, make sure you collect all the records if you play it)
- Trails in the Sky trilogy (JRPGs with a great positional battle system, banger music and very charming and well written characters. Also, the world building is great. The next game in the series lost the charm imo, but most people like it as much)
- Ys: The Oath in Felghana (isometric action JRPG with gameplay that is a mixture of hack&slash, bullet hell and platformer, it's pretty unique. Also yhe music is good)
The issue is sitting on a desk instead of a couch for even more of the day. I already had a low tolerance for such game systems (dunno if it's the ADHD), so now it's absolutely demolished and I feel you
First full-time employment, and employment in general.
Huh. I have only watched Ping-Pong and the Tatami Galaxy but I never got that vibe. Can you elaborate? (Not trying to argue with you, just curious)