BlahajByte

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[–] BlahajByte@lemmy.blahaj.zone 4 points 3 hours ago

No apologize need, i was wondering if we were gonna have to celebrate you coming out.

[–] BlahajByte@lemmy.blahaj.zone 7 points 20 hours ago

That's actually pretty common. Being suicidal is very often about wanting to escape from the endless negativity that hurts you. Death is an ultimate escape from all of that. however The self preservation often kicks in. It's a survival instinct to wanna avoid death and no matter how much people wanna avoid pain part of our brains will scream death is worse. I don't know what you are going through but atleast know you aren't the only one suffering. Many who suffer would gladly share what positivity they could with you. Many people do find there way through the pain and I dearly hope you can too

[–] BlahajByte@lemmy.blahaj.zone 25 points 4 days ago (1 children)

I don't know what her deal is but she's being hella toxic. You valid AF I promise!

My condolences I fell like if i ever had my own place i would just never have guests because things like that would make me crazy. I have spent my day so far playing way too much SrarCraft 2 wishing i could drag someone into playing some with me. Wishing i could afford something anything to have a new hobby to distract myself with. Instead i will probably just doomscroll job listings again. maybe one day i will belong somewhere and not be poor and stuff.

I was officially diagnosed with ADHD when i was young. lately though i has strong suspicions i am autistic too. It is kinda frustrating to think maybe my life wouldn't have turned out so bad if I had known earlier but oh well :/