will they do a sketch about US prison labor? or one mentioning the actual genocide happening right now, being perpetrated with bombs and guns? will they do a sketch talking about Nike or american companies using forced labor? nope.

death to AmeriKKKa

so my weeb ass is finally going to Japan. Main things me and my partner want to do are Ghlibi museum and theme park, see the life size Gundam, and go to a baseball game. We'll be mostly in Tokyo and Kyoto and then the Ghibli theme park in Nagoya. We like all the nerd shit so we'll be in Shibuya, Shinkuk and Akihabara, and maybe do some fancy stuff in Ginza.

first PNAU album in 7 years. I fuckin love PNAU.

Thrustmaster(lol) T150. It's pretty fuckin rad, i only used a controller to play racing games before this but this is so much cooler.

she was so rad

I don't mean with BetterHelp or some other shit advertised on a podcast. I was looking up some therapists on psychologytoday.com and noticed so many do it online. There are some in person ones near me but they are still like a 35 min drive. I guess my side of the midsized city im in doesnt seem to have much.

Some background info: dad got cancer when i was 12, watched him take his last breaths on a hospital bed in the living room, with my mom and sister there. i smoked weed for 18 years but quit last year. I used to have every now and then panic attacks thinking about my existence and what it is and how it will end.

Lately though i've been having all kinds of shit going through my brain. It's unseasonably warm here so i freak out about climate change, ive recently started to be scared of house fires for no reason, and then last night i was on some anxious shit thinking about burglaries. Me and my gf have cats so i get anxious about them if im not at home. I've really become a slight agoraphobe. Was kinda wondering if anyone else had this stuff happening to their brain and what could help it. It's really ramped up the last month or so. I am trying to tell myself that im worried too much about things that probably won't happen but it's hard to trick yourself.

I've been looking up therapists, there's CBT which looks interesting i guess. Part of me just wants a pill to make it all go away.

wait which Joe is everyone else talking about?

tl;dr: have a friend who has historically always been mad when his friends got a gf/wife. He acts like he's 15 years old and saying "bros before hoes" still. He calls me and other friends a yuppie or breeder, and he thinks crosswalks are authoritarian so he has to always be a "rebel" and make it seem like he has the most unique viewpoint in the world. He doesn't change anything about himself, and he's stubbornly proud of having "no filter." This has caused every wife/gf of his friends to not like him. He will never be invited to any kind of social event because he will say stupid shit. Like, nobody has to be a rabid commie all the fucking time. Him and my gf got into a huge fight because he always talks like an asshole, and i live with my gf, so he doesnt come to my house at all because he'll say some shit. He still brings up this fight when im around him, and it's like get the fuck over it. I basically don't share anything about my life that involves my partner now, because he'll say something fucking stupid about her. He also begins a lot of sentences with "well" or "actually" which is never helpful. He literally can't admin when he is wrong, even about the simplest shit.

This really all seemed to get worse once I started my current long term relationship, and then it got way worse when my gf got sick of his shitty attitude and how he treats everyone like an asshole. He literally just can't be chill at all. No leftist(or similar) should be ranting constantly about every single injustice during every single social situation. That is exhausting to be around, and there is a time and place for it, but there has to be an ability to switch that shit off.

Finding and keeping relationships requires changing yourself just a bit, and making compromises, and it's now become apparent he isn't capable of that.

related question: have you ever dumped a long time friend? This is all a somewhat recent change, like the past 3-4 years, and it really seems to be because im in a relationship like most of our friend group, so now he's totally alone. Ive heard him say he's in therapy but i have to wonder if that's true, because it clearly isn't working. I'm annoyed by him but I pity him too because he can't fucking change for anybody at all.

So there really isn't any reason to keep quoting Trotsky