DoomBloomDialectic

that's our (humanity's) secret, officer....we're all crashouts

(i breka down weeping in the starbucks while imagingin i am becoming the increidble hualk)

the Big Beautiful Working Class (who needs to mercilessly devour the bourgeoisie: for the sake of our friends, siblings, lovers, parents, children, children's children, our comrades we'll never meet who live a globe away, their children & parents & friends & lovers, the memories (or even spirits if you conceive of realoity like that) of our past comrades & their friends, siblings, lovers, parents, children.

( ahem um, devour them as in politically - bloodlessly & non-literally, like a big old peaceful general strike that goes "boo!" and scares the mean ol' industrialists so much they hand over the reins of power. yeah.)

sorry hexchapos i am crashout-core tn

which way, western they?? (pull out my heart and feed it to the megathread, or go to badposting and make a "lenin my goat" spampost????????)

this timeline is fucked i need to find the right way to nihilistically crashout we could've had something beautiful but isntead we live on nazi-earth

XR is an alternative my doc discussed in case of a shortage when i got my first script. i haven't asked pharmacies about it because they're ready to be done with the convo after the first question about stock, nevermind the "okay what about chewables, okay if that's a no what about name brand." it is definitely something to consider though, i'm just finding it overwhelming to even make the handful of calls a day i've been making at the moment.

and yeah sadly i think maybe my city is just unlucky in terms of shortages/backlogs :( it seems very region-to-region

express scripts has my adhd meds in stock but because my pharmacy insurance is a competitor to express scripts i cannot use express scripts and my insurance's mail-service pharmacy does not have my meds but will get them in the third week of july so if i send a script to them i get the honor of being allowed on their waitlist and and and an

(<--- the DEA if that wasn't clear)

crying can be good though, your brain might actually be cool and doing you a favor by providing a source of relief & catharsis

Edit: also friends of the present can cause good/happy tears!!

the common toxic straight relationship thing of "no opposite gender/gender-presenting friends" really crumbles when you think about the fact that bisexual people r real. 

no friends, i guess wld be the logical end point of that scenario.

mood