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stabbing my belly makes me queesy tho.

I never presented super masculine, but I was in the boymode closet for some time (still partly am).
For me taking that leap into trying to present unambiguously feminine was something I really feared, I remember trying to cross-dress in high school and instead of feeling any kind of gender euphoria, it only heightened my sense of dysphoria.
I think that experience scarred me, even now I can't bring myself to wear anything more fem than yoga pants or bear to look myself in the mirror.
I'd rather be ignorant of how much I do or don't pass, or how I would look in a dress than confirm my worst fears.

I wonder if what you are experiencing with your beard is in a similar vein, where like...if you present masculine, or cover your face with a beard, or don't really try to present fem you can live in a state of ignorance.

I feel like the needle hasn't been going in as easy as it used to and idk if there is a reason or if I have just been more scared/hesitant to actually push it in fully.

Think I am just gonna try to get over my hangups.
edit: I will still be shaving my armpits and crotch everyday tho, that's non-negotiable.

I feel like I always go to social events trying to make friends and then just end up doing this.

I am gonna try shaving my body once a week and not being so neurotic about having little hairs.

Might need to stop doing my injections in my butt, I've been having a hard time doing it there lately for whatever reason.

It’s so fucked up

My girlfriend said she would cuck me

Loud motorcycles and cars should be banned

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Huh, I feel like I always just get obsessed with something for a short time and only focus on that before getting obsessed with something else and forgetting about it for awhile.