WalrusDragonOnABike

like maybe the method i was shown is just out of date or i forgot how to do it correctly or maybe i’m just too fucking tense but it didn’t used to hurt and bleed this much and i’m sick of it!!!

Sucks when you get more anxious about it because the last time or two didn't go so well, so you accidentally do things like tense up more as a result and it becomes harder to do a good job. Even if the first time it doesn't go well is just because you got unlucky and struck blood...

Have you changed batch of needles or maybe the thing the T is mixed with is different?

A while ago I thought I’d cracked the code with “you know what I think I just don’t like the idea of dating as a guy,” but then I slipped back into “no I’m definitely just aro.”

The intersection of gender, romantic attraction, and sexual attraction can be frustrating at times. Have similar doubts. For me, I've suspected the reason I don't want to date is I did not want to date within the social construction of being a guy and all the expectations society put on guys far longer than I had a clue I was an egg.

Right after becoming confident in the ace label, my egg cracked and ruined that confidence. I still generally think I'm probably ace, but there's now the nugget of doubt of "maybe its just because I don't want to have sex with my current body."

I think for me, it helps to remember its not a binary of either black-stripe aroace or allosexual. There's a whole spectrum to being aroace, and I'm at least pretty sure now that I'm somewhere in it. Granted, that doesn't help with figuring out what sort of interpersonal relations I would want, but I figure that's something to worry about later.