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cross-posted from: https://lemmy.blahaj.zone/post/15223477

We need more transmasculine people (and people in general) on here. If you know a transmasculine person please get them to check this place out. Spread the word!

 

We need more transmasculine people (and people in general) on here. If you know a transmasculine person please get them to check this place out. Spread the word!

 

Annoyed with tgsupply for very long order wait times and being out of stock of almost everything I was gonna get but this article is helpful nonetheless.

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My progress with T (lemmy.blahaj.zone)
submitted 10 months ago* (last edited 10 months ago) by cowboycrustation@lemmy.blahaj.zone to c/ftm@lemmy.blahaj.zone
 

It's been about six and a half months that I've been on T and I have seen great progress.

I have been on 25mg of 1% gel this entire time, but my T levels (last time they were checked, which has been a while) have shown up in normal cis male levels, so it seems that my body is processing it as it would a normal dose (50mg of 1%).

My voice has changed some and singing got a lot harder. It's gotten better since but is still not where I would like it to be. I hear it'll get better with time. I think I will likely end up a baritone (pre-t was a tenor on the high end)

Been getting hairier, but not much substantial growth on my face. Mainly on my stomach. Arm and leg hair has gotten thicker but since it's blond it's not very noticeable.

Shoulders look somewhat broader. My chest has gotten substantially smaller and looks more like moobs than boobs now. Other than that body fat redistribution has been slow and is not happening as quickly as I would like.

Self image has improved a lot. I can stand to look at myself in the mirror without immediately recoiling now. I can actually bear to look at photographs of myself now, even when I'm not binding and am in PJs. I see me in those photos, a guy, not some external otherworldly being who I don't immediately recognize. That has made me have to face some of my flaws that I previously ignored and discounted because I was so separated from my sense of self. It's painful, but the good kind that helps you to grow.

Bottom growth has definitely happened, and my junk is definitely bigger. Acts more like a penis now with erections and the likes. Gets a prickly feeling from time to time which is uncomfortable. I'm assuming that means growth.

Face looks more masc, acne is different. I get neck acne now and it tends to be flatter than it was before.

Definitely have boy stank now. I smell pretty bad after less time sweating. More "sour" body odor.

My hairline is slowly receding. It looks good for now but it will likely progress till I'm bald. Oh well.

All and all, I feel like it takes a lot less effort to pass now. That frees up a lot of physical and emotional effort that I previously devoted to passing and I can now live more freely. I've still got a long ways to go but progress is slow and steady.

 

I recently got this STP from rodeoh and I'm having trouble with leakage. Granted, I've only used it a handful of times in the shower, but I find my stream is too strong and it overflows the basin of the STP before it can exit the shaft and then it leaks out everywhere.

What are some tips to mitigate that? (Additional general STP tips are also highly welcome)

 

If you've found some new resources regarding being trans (any aspect of it), link to 'em down below. Sharing is caring, woo hoo.

Personal tips/anecdotes of things you've found useful are also welcome.

 

User dandelion posted this link in a comment on MTF, and I figured y'all would be interested in this (especially to the eggs out there).

 

Hi

 

Howdy y'all,

Linkopenschest.wav is stepping down as head mod for this community, so I have inherited this position. I need more people to help me co-mod this community since I am not the most active these days. Comment below if you would like to be a mod.

Mod requirements:

  1. Known member of this community
 

cross-posted from: https://lemmy.blahaj.zone/post/13998559

Reaching Out For Help

After much consideration and fighting with my brain, I've decided that it's okay to ask for help in hard situations. So, I'm making this in hope that I receive at least a little bit of help. I'm asking for money, friends, and any advice you can give me. Everything counts and will help me during this rather terrible time. I'm Uni (name TBD) and I'm a 16 y/o transgirl unfortunately situated in the USA. You may know me as a regular on the Blahaj Matrix chats going by "Miss Universe".

So a little bit (a lot?) of backstory to sort of explain my current situation. My egg cracked October last year and it was both the best and worst thing that has happened in my life so far. Being a minor means that I can't really do anything about the fact that my egg cracked, I'm fully relying on the people around me to help me (which has failed). Put simply, as a minor I have absolutely no control over my body or my life, I have no money, no experience, and nowhere to go.

I came out to my mother and step-father (my parents are divorced) February this year, and while they seemed to be supportive at first they semi-recently turned on me and have been mostly unsupportive since then.

As for my father and step-mother, they are both actively transphobic republicans. I have no plans on coming out to them until after I turn 18, and it would be unsafe to do so before then.

Basically, as of now I have basically no support from anybody in my life and I'm completely trapped as my dysphoria gets worse with each passing day.

With my situation sort of explained(?), why am I actually here? Pretty much I'm here because I need money. Money for clothes, makeup, just stuff that can hopefully help me alleviate some of my dysphoria until I'm able to afford to do so myself (which as a minor is difficult). And also I suppose gas, in case it comes to it and I need to run away, even for a short period. I'm also looking for advice, I don't really know what to do and it would be really nice to have at least some semblance of what I could be doing right now.

I don't really know if any of that made sense, I'm bad at organizing my thoughts and even worse at asking for help. If you have any questions post them in the comments and I can probably answer them.

You can support me here on Buy Me a Coffee if you so wish, and/or with advice in the comments. Every donation counts.

[–] cowboycrustation@lemmy.blahaj.zone 21 points 1 year ago (6 children)

Keris does have PayPal. That's very generous of you. I'll ask them about their details real quick.

Thanks for your help! I'll try it out.

[–] cowboycrustation@lemmy.blahaj.zone 1 points 1 year ago (2 children)

Which one will look the least like makeup?

[–] cowboycrustation@lemmy.blahaj.zone 1 points 1 year ago (4 children)

Do you have a specific product that you can recommend that I can find at someplace like Walmart? My eyebrows are blonde

I'm still struggling with "oh shit. My body's actually changing. This is for real now." On one hand, it's a welcome change and it's not coming fast enough, but on the other I worry about future health problems and the life I could have had if I would just stop being trans. Change is hard no matter how welcome it is. I'm gonna keep going because it feels right. I feel so much better with T than without.

Also, I had a dream that I was going bald last night. It was kinda funny in retrospect.

[–] cowboycrustation@lemmy.blahaj.zone 4 points 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago) (1 children)

Yay, congrats on scheduling the Lyft and flight :D That's a HUGE first step that you just took.

I know it's not hard to let anxiety and all of the bad "what-ifs" shape your perception of the future. The unknown is really scary sometimes. But like...what if things turned out okay? If you think of your worst case scenarios, and then your best case ones, it usually ends up being something in the middle. That's a good place to set your expectations. It's very likely that it will at least be better than the situation you're in now. You'll get to meet other queer people! You won't have your parents controlling your life and manipulating you.

Ultimately, you're not gonna know how it'll turn out unless you take the plunge and do it. Things may not always go according to plan, but you'll adapt and figure things out as you go along. If it doesn't work out, then at least you tried and did what you could instead of wondering about what could have been for the rest of your life.

P.s. when you get the chance to go by a store, get some vitamin D tablets. You're likely very deficient in it since you've been cooped up. Low vitamin D can cause things like depression to worsen and get out of hand. Also helps with bone health. Might help with feeling a little better.

[–] cowboycrustation@lemmy.blahaj.zone 3 points 1 year ago (1 children)

That quote goes so hard

[–] cowboycrustation@lemmy.blahaj.zone 3 points 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago) (9 children)

Keris,

Make sure you extract some cash from your bank account. It is always best practice to carry some cash in case anything happens with your debit card. $50-100 is a good amount to carry, just put it in a place where you won't lose it (like inside of your phone case).

It wouldn't be a bad idea to go ahead and contact some of the organizations in the resource doc and explain when you'll arrive and what you need.

Also for groceries, there are these little cart things that you can buy which look like a combination of a laundry basket and a suitcase but they're made specifically to carry groceries and stuff. You might could use one of those roller plastic laundry baskets in a pinch. Might could find one off Amazon or something when you get there. Maybe Walmart or target. A nice-ish one will work well.

Remember to roll up your clothes instead of fold them in your suitcase. It saves room. Some airports have luggage carts that you can use to transport your luggage. Keep your most important things (toiletries, meds, chargers, etc) in your carry on as opposed to your checked bag, because they can get lost or delayed occasionally.

Btw, thanks for the update. I'm willing to hop on a voice call later. Ask Zorsith if they want to join too. We can all play Minecraft or something.

Yup, I mainly date queer people too. I pretty much only go for bi or pan women at this point. There's just an additional element of comfort that dating queer people provides.

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