not for nearly as long, only a few years now, but i've been in a similar position. at a point where even boymoding outside i worry i'm just being seen as a non-passing trenny. i guess i've been telling myself that there's never going to be a point where i just start to be able to pass, hrt doesn't work like that. no matter what i do there's going to be an awkward phase where even with my best efforts i'll be socially out but non-passing. and that if i have a chance to pass i'm hurting myself by not getting that awkward phase outta the way now. maybe i'm putting too much emphasis on passing. plus telling myself this shit hasn't helped me so idk what i'm trying to say. brainworms suck. hope it gets better for the both of us. <3
in the absence of gods light angels become like an animal! human speech is limited, and they really need to be cared for. when taken outside they should be put in a harness or collar. their diet must be monitored, and they should not be expected to work. one day god will make me like one of his angels and i hope he lets me stay and roam the earth. maybe i'll find a caretaker of my own! main
not for nearly as long, only a few years now, but i've been in a similar position. at a point where even boymoding outside i worry i'm just being seen as a non-passing trenny. i guess i've been telling myself that there's never going to be a point where i just start to be able to pass, hrt doesn't work like that. no matter what i do there's going to be an awkward phase where even with my best efforts i'll be socially out but non-passing. and that if i have a chance to pass i'm hurting myself by not getting that awkward phase outta the way now. maybe i'm putting too much emphasis on passing. plus telling myself this shit hasn't helped me so idk what i'm trying to say. brainworms suck. hope it gets better for the both of us. <3