I'm thinking about killing myself constantly. I can't imagine I'll ever long for this.
Maybe if I'm dead? But then I won't be longing for anything...
mjsaber
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I'm confused. Are you implying I'm a hateful conservative? Or that by virtue of being in this space, I'm attracting hateful conservatives to me?
I use the term Atheistic Christian, which essentially means I believe in a lot of the teachings of Jesus, but I don't believe he was any kind of divinity.
I've gotten a disturbing number of messages on grindr from men that are hard core right wing, yet are on a gay dating app. The level of hate, ignorance, and cognitive dissonance is unprecedented. And it's all fueled by highly addictive apps, and pumped at unimaginable scales thanks to AI.
I hate to say it, but I think this really is the end.
The episode of Portlandia he cameos in is amazing.
To my knowledge, proteins can start to denature at 104F, depending on the protein and other factors like pH. Around 106F, proteins in the brain will start to denature, regardless of other factors.
Also, at a high enough level (104 F), the proteins in your brain start to denature, which leads to death.
Weird, that's also the only thing my Politic Science degree has ever gotten me!
I don't really have any advice or anything, but I hope you can find some reason to keep going. It sucks feeling alone, even more so when you're with other people.
Transitioning fucking sucks. Even if you have good results, it's a mess to deal with, physically and socially, and those difficulties make it mentally taxing as well. Like a lot of social media, we tend to only see the really exceptional cases, and not the reality a lot of us will live with.
I wish I had something to say that could take your pain away, but I don't. At some point, we all have to find a reason to keep going for ourselves. For me, it's my cat. It's nothing, in the grand scheme of things, but I'm all he has, and that's enough to keep me going. At least for today.
Keep reaching out. Keep trying. In the end, that's all we can really do.
My cat is a tabby and does this exact thing with his paw. Feels like love.
I'm a nurse. Does that count as "blue collar"? Because I absolutely need to shower after 12 hours in the hospital.
My recommendation is either The Grand Budapest Hotel or Moonrise Kingdom. Both by Wes Anderson, and probably his two best films. Excellent director with a very distinct visual style.