peppersky

there was a woman who had interest in me ten years ago since then nothing even at my most social times i have many friends but most have moved away

I had a dream where I kissed a woman a few days back oh boy was that fun I wish I had never woken up

That was obviously wrong I'm sorry. It's just that my loneliness obviously doesn't stem from my lack of status or from my poverty since even people mich lower on the social ladder have a romantic life which means all my problems are my own fault and I should feel ashamed for having them which is what I meant to write sorry I was having a panic attack

I have never kissed a woman, I have never slept with a woman, even though i have craved companionship all my life. I feel lonely every time I go to sleep and every time I wake up. I feel ashamed for this and feel like there's something deeply personally wrong with me. My favorite movies are romance movies.

if having my mental breakdowns on here isn't ok please ban me thanks

I JUST WANT TO BE DESIRED BY SOMEONE I JUST WANT SOMEONE TO BE THERE FOR ME LONELINESS MAKES YOU GO CRAZY IM NOT CRAZY ITS CAPITALISM

I WOULD JOIN AN ORG BUT I WAS RANDOMLY BORN IN GERMANY AND EVERY COMMUNIST ORG IS ZIONIST HERE AND ALSO NONE OF THESE PLACES EVER FEEL INVITING I GUESS IVE GOT A CHUD FACE OR SOMETHING HOW DO I PERFORM GOOD LEFTIST MASCULINITY RIGHT PLEASE TELL ME ALSO HOW DO I STOP CARING ABOUT GAZA FOUR HUNDRED THOUSAND DEAD AND COUNTING

THE WORLD IS DYING AND NOBODY WANTS TO BE WITH ME

whenever incels are mentioned there are dozens of posts pointing and laughing and laughing and pointing and laughing and pointing and laughing and pointing and laughing and pointingand laughing and pointing and laughing and pointingand laughing and pointing and laughing and pointingand laughing and pointing and laughing and pointingand laughing and pointing and laughing and pointingand laughing and pointing and laughing and pointingand laughing and pointing and laughing and pointingand laughing and pointing and laughing and pointingand laughing and pointing and laughing and pointingand laughing and pointing and laughing and pointingand laughing and pointing and laughing and pointingand laughing and pointing and laughing and pointingand laughing and pointing and laughing and pointingand laughing and pointing and laughing and pointingand laughing and pointing and laughing and pointingand laughing and pointing and laughing and pointingand laughing and pointing and laughing and pointingand laughing and pointing and laughing and pointingand laughing and pointing and laughing and pointingand laughing and pointing and laughing and pointingand laughing and pointing and laughing and pointingand laughing and pointing and laughing and pointingand laughing and pointing and laughing and pointingand laughing and pointing and laughing and pointingand laughing and pointing and laughing and pointingand laughing and pointing and laughing and pointingand laughing and pointing and laughing and pointingand laughing and pointing and laughing and pointingand laughing and pointing and laughing and pointingand laughing and pointing and laughing and pointingand laughing and pointing and laughing and pointingand laughing and pointing and laughing and pointingand laughing and pointing and laughing and pointingand laughing and pointing and laughing and pointingand laughing and pointing and laughing and pointingand laughing and pointing and laughing and pointingand laughing and pointing and laughing and pointingand laughing and pointing and laughing and pointingand laughing and pointing and laughing and pointingand laughing and pointing and laughing and pointingand laughing and pointing and laughing and pointingand laughing and pointing and laughing and pointingand laughing and pointing and laughing and pointing

cool on you for getting help for your schizophrenia im just a weaker person who deserves to die i guess