Canada

Assuming he was brain dead, at least he probably didn't consciously experience that pain, in spite of whatever involuntary bodily spasms he might've made on life support. The man you knew died painlessly at least, and I hope that brings you some peace.

Based on your description, I don't think your father would have qualified for MAID in its current form - recipients must be able to provide informed consent immediately before receiving medical assistance in dying, with very narrow exceptions.

In Canada doctors are obligated to give you the options in cases of terminal illness: Palliative in hospital or home, or MAID.

My father had .. a lot of issues. From diabetes to hepatic encephalitis to cancer. But, because catholic he wouldn't even consider maid.

So, we had him in their home, in the living room, on a hospital bed.

I spent 7 months at my parents home taking care of anything I could.

From the diagnosis to the point he ... it was horrible. For everyone.

7 months watching him die.

The pain, the humiliating failures of his body, the desperation, the anger, it all was because god.

And years later, I still get flashes, I need to scream to the sky, I need to cry. I couldn't even look at a picture of him.

It fucked me up.

It haunts me.