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I'm not sure where you're getting that. Maybe you don't understand the point I've been trying to get across. I'm not saying it's hard for me, I'm saying it's impossible (and extremely impractical) due to current circumstances in my life. Allow me to spell it out for you further, since you still can't seem to find footing to step down from your high horse:

I am in the middle of working towards obtaining a diagnosis on a potentially life-threatening/life-altering condition. If I were to move to another state right now, I would have to find new insurance, which I cannot currently afford, then restart the whole diagnostic process with a new doctor, which would be more money I don't have and would waste all of the time and money I've already put in with the current doctor.

I'm poor because, even though I make a modest, yet relatively decent living these days, I'm still financially recovering from over a decade of making around $20k/year while living in a major city. This is an extremely difficult thing to do. Most of that time was spent working 60 - 80 hour weeks to the point that I had no social life or energy for anything outside of doing some basic hygiene, eating the one meal a day that I could afford, sleeping, and waking up the next day to do it all again. I didn't have parents that could subsidize the beginning phase of my life. I had to build it all myself and, since you don't seem to understand this, it is far more expensive to be poor in the US than it is to be middle/upper class.

All of this has molded me into a very resourceful and self-reliant person, which gives me the ability to get by on very little. Yet, I'm still struggling to reach something akin to financial stability because of the greed and entitlement of people who have wealth in this country, and the resulting defunct systems we live with. I am doing everything within my power, including taking online courses I may not be able to afford, to slog through it all and maybe improve my situation in the future. I'm very fortunate that I'm making some progress and don't have kids to finance. It could always be worse.

Further, I'm an independent contractor and I'm currently in contracts with two different companies that require me to live nearby. I could break these contracts, but that wouldn't serve me in terms of the longevity/health of my career. Nor would that reflect on the kind of man I try to be.

Even further, I just started a two year lease that I was very fortunate to get with my shitty/lack of credit. I'm not going to break that.

Should I keep going?

Here's another point for your dense mind to mull over: What does it cost you to try to understand any of this? Is your worldview so narrow, so fragile, that you can't accept a reality that a stranger is telling you they're living? Think on that. What ever conclusion you come to, what does that mean for your worldview? You're essentially telling me that I don't know how to live well with my circumstances, that you know better, despite your clear lack of understanding of many of the hardships people face. This tells me you haven't lived through many hardships in your life. You're pretending to be the arbiter of truth on a subject you're simply not qualified to have an opinion on. If truth matters to you at all, you need to be able to examine your understanding of things, in entirety, and find the gaps in your knowledge on the subject. That will never be possible as long as you are coming to conclusions without ever attempting to understand the subject matter along the way. That's willful ignorance. And your arrogance in conveying that ignorance is extremely off-putting to the people you try to talk down to, who have actually lived through the things you feel you understand better than them. Fuck off with all of that. Be better.