For what its worth, I have no clear idea about what I want. But I'm also just starting. I just know I've spent too much time getting jealous every time someone talks about how they started or talking about effects. I know I'm bad at predicting what I would want, likely thanks to lots of years of repression. Worst case, it does nothing to benefit me but I'm quite certain I wouldn't find the effects to be negative. Was weird for me starting too: I've long thought it kinda strange that other people reported starting uncertain and being very happy with the results. One thing I was most uncertain about was breast growth since functionally they're useless and just extra weight bouncing around, but I didn't want to use SERMS because higher risks of side effects (I already break my bones just fine without osteoporosis). But trying out cosplaying as a feel character while wearing breastforms just seemed normal. So I feel pretty confident I wouldn't have a problem with that.

Also, I kinda don't want goals, because I feel having goals can mean failure to achieve goals and potential disappointment. So much YMMV with things.

I had a similar thing around my facial hair before i began transition. I hated it, but i also loved it because it hid my face. I had a big dysphoria beard, and shaved it a couple times, but every time i just let it grow back because what was underneath was so alien and weird and bad. Do you think youd like your face more if it were more feminine? Like dont try to focus on specific parts of your face, maybe dont even look in the mirror.

I think focusing on specific things can be a bit of a trap, both in that one can develop dismorphia, and in that ones transition might not change those things.